You are the reason I hate myself
You are the reason I am this way
You made me do things I didn't want to,
and made me think it was my idea,
that it was okay.You treated me like shit,
and made me think I deserved it.
You ruined me....
and I let you.I hate you,
but what I hate more is....
the fact that I still,
love you.I hate myself even more,
because I still love you.
I know I shouldn't,
but I do,
and I hate it.I still love the person you were,
before you became who you are now,
before you showed me who you really are.I still love the sweet things you said,
before it turned to hate.
I still love the things you did,
before they became hurt.I went against everything for you
I did everything for you
I gave you everything,
and I still wasn't good enough.You made me feel worthless,
as if I was nothing.
You gave me every reason to hate you,
and I do.Yet for some stupid reason,
despite everything,
I still love you,
and I hate myself even more for it.