Today I decided to talk to Laura and find out what is happening because there is something so different about her and it worries me. She hasn't been eating much and when she does she is always sick.
At lunch I decided to take her out of college campus where we could talk without people just getting in the way.
"Hey , are you okay?" I asked her, she probably has already guessed why we where here but I needed to know.
"I am good thanks, you?" she replied with her famous fake smile.
"Actually, I am not okay. I have been worried about you. You dont eat much, you are always unwell, you barely speak to us, you miss lessons, you are just not the same. I just want to know what is going on. If I done something wrong tell me please." I regretted saying everything when I saw her trying to hold back the tears .
"I am so sorry I didn't mean to hurt your feelings." I continued
"It's okay, you are right... There is something different in me. I am sorry I have been a bad friend but lately lots of stuff has been happening and I know how happy you are with Ronnie.. so I dont want to ruin your happy moments... I know what you are about to say, but promise me one thing... That no matter what happens in next month's you won't push him away. Okay? " She said with tears running down her face.
I am not sure what to say to her. I am speechless..
what is going on, I don't understand" I finally managed to say.
Laura just stood there, looking into distance and I can tell that she is trying not to break down
"I am here for you, no matter what it is" I said to her.
"I am sorry, I am so fucking sorry. I am sorry for letting you down. I am sorry for not being fine, I am sorry for not being strong enough. I am sorry for being tired of all this. I am sorry I didn't keep my promise not to cut. I AM SORRY" she screamed at the end then she broke down in hysterical crying and all I could do is just sit there and cry with her.
How could I not see it. Why wasn't I there for her when she started to self harm again. Why is she feeling like this. I was so busy with Ronnie that I forgot about Laura. What kind of friend does that.
She calmed down a little and added "I am not fine at all. I wish I couldn't feel anything. I wish this pain would go away. I wish I could wake up with amnesia. I wish I was dead" she added with tears still running down her
Now everything became Crystal clear. I could understand why she never said anything.
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Hopeless Romantic
Ficção AdolescentePay had a hopeless crush on a popular boy called Ronnie from her college. She thought she will never stand a chance but her destiny had different plans for her.
