Goku x Reader

Here's Whats Been Happening in My Life

I love this guy for awhile. I had ever since last year of school. When I finally started talking to him towards the end of the year, I felt that I was doing something worth wild, worth my time. He made me happy. The happiest girl on earth. Lets just call him, Bruno. He was my first boyfriend, my first everything really. Im in a grade below him. My parents are very strict so during the summer I didn't do much of anything. Bruno wanted to go places and meet up but I didnt even tell my parents about him. He use to get mad and sad at me in the beginning because i didnt tell him when I was feeling sad or depressed. I felt that was a burden on someone to just dump all of my feelings on. So i didn't. We use to argue a lot. He would say that he was suppose to be the man. He was the man of the relationship and i was the girl. My personality is shy and quiet but also strong and independent. He didn't like that. He wouldnt understand that I whether fight a battle together with him instead of stand on the side lines wanting him to win. Then i finally got through his head that a strong women is good too. Later on we always fought. Always had arguments. I just didn't know what to do. I wanted to grew with him and to build something with him but all he was run from the problems. I felt like i was always the problem. I have a niece thats around my age and she is not straight. Ive known her for years like almost 10 years and he didn't like her because she was gay. He didnt like her coming over. And didnt like her nor my family. Towards the end i started telling him when i was upset, when I was mad or depressed. He wanted to change that. I thought it was sweet because you wouldnt want someone you love to be like that. I thought he wanted to change me for the better. Well for me it takes time, especially with my personality.  He wanted my change to be fast and something that I really wanted. I thought he was absolutely perfect even when I saw his flaws. Even when he broke my heart millions of times. He would get mad at me for not wanting it fast enough or wanting to change enough. He finially said lets break up after the hundredth time. I cried so much. All my friends told me that he was toxic and that he wasnt good for me. They were all happy that i broke up with him. Thats what he wanted to tell everyone. But he broke up with me. I love him still. So yesterday was the first in 4 to 5 months since we broke up, that I actually talked to him again. Well he will be graduating soon... Even though he wants nothing to do with me, I still love him... I still would do anything for him. Even after all he did was hurt me. I can run miles for him... But yesterday I couldn't even talk to him... Let alone say anything to him because when I looked at him, I got choked up and I wanted to cry... And I did after he left... I cried at school and everywhere... It's my fault... Its always my fault... When he broke up with me, I wanted to get back together with him so i just kept talking to him. Anything to still have some type of link to him. I talked about my feelings and how I felt to him. And he didn't care and just wanted to get away from me. So yesterday, i wanted to wish him congratulations on graduating. I went up to him and tapped him on his knee. He shook his head no and i did it again. And he whispered okay fine. But he didnt sound mad nor that much annoyed. I went to the stairs and he followed. I couldnt say anything because everything just rush into my mind all over again. All the pain and heart ache. All the nights I cried for wanting him back. He saw this and he said at this point youre just harassing me and I just want to move on. And after he said that I stayed quiet. And he went down stairs and probably to the restroom. He didnt sound happy nor mad. He sounded sad and broken... I just miss him and i want to do everything that I can to have him back even though he was toxic.