Heartfelt

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We're finished, thank you!
I finally get some freedom from you,
You had me so suffocated.

We were toxic to each other,
We both knew that,
But we did nothing to prevent this disaster.

We hurt each other in ways we could only imagine,
You cheated and verbally abused me,
I physically and mentally abused you.

You told me you were going to change,
And I told you the same filthy lies,
We were feeding each other a faux love.

One single thing made us stay together,
It was the only good thing about us,
Which is absurdly sad.

What happened to us?
We were extremely happy at the start.
What changed our feelings towards one another?

We faked so many things in front of people,
At times how I wished we actually did those things,
Sometimes I wished that you had actually loved me,

Like I loved you.
I did so many things to please you,
It's ridiculous, honestly,

I'm telling you this now,
For as long as we were together,
We could've had a child by now,

But for your sake, we didn't,
I became pregnant twice,
And both times I aborted,

You said you never wanted a child,
And I was only granting your wish.
I should've kept both,
But I was too scared to tell you,
I just didn't know how you would react,
I guess we'll never know.

-L.G.