Heartfelt

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TO HIM
She was everything he could very wish for
She was his sole purpose for wanting to live again
She made him see the world in such a different way than he was a custom to
When he sees her he has love and adoration in his eyes
She was the reason that he had butterflies fluttering around his stomach wanting to come out and confess how much she means to him

TO HER
All he ever was, was a game
She had a list of all the boys she's ever used into thinking that they had a chance with her
This had caused her humor and happiness in her dark wicked soul

THEN HE CAME ALONG
She fell for him the same way they did for her
He played her the way she played them
He showed her the pain that she had caused them
He showed her the heartbeat
He showed her the cruel and sick joke she played

So to get away from her so-called misery 

She decided to make this feeling of guilt, betrayal, depression, failure and heart break
to go away for good

She wanted a permanent solution to a temporary problem

She thought of only one thing

But the thing that she didn't think of  were the consequences that would be laid upon her family

Her friends

Her brothers

Her sisters

She didn't think of the feeling she would cause

Even after 7 years, they have endured the same feeling

But this time her list was longer than what she had hoped, only with a few unexpected people

It included her family

Her friends

Her loved ones

Her best friends

Even the guys she had played and used 

But there is one list she never thought that would ever exist for her

FOR HER

That list would be the same one her 'lovers" are on 

Along with

Having to feel

Guilt

Depression

Hurt

Heartbroken

And 

Sadness

All because one guy made her realize what she was doing

It made her feel disgusted with herself.