Poetries Left Unsaid #Wattys2018

HAPPINESS

I wished upon a star often
Wondering what can I take
But how many times more?
Should I wish before I go?

Go.. to somewhere different
Something new
Something strange
But something real

In this world full of lies,
How can I make sure
That you are not one of it
I am scared. Terrified. Threatened

In this place full of trees,
How can I make sure you are just a bush?
A vein? A herb?
Because, I know there is something there.
Something you're hiding from anyone else

Why? Why does it have to be me?
Who'll suffer the pain? The devastation?
It's not that I am complaining
But isn't unfair? I had nothing to do.
Nothing left. No one to fight. But I still have to.

Hey. Let me remind you.
I am not a tree.
I am bush. I am a vein.
Not strong enough.
But like a bush, I can be thick.
Like a vein, I can crawl the pain to become happiness..

Happiness... I've ever wanted.
But not given.
Why? It's not giving for.
I am not worth of it

But let me ask you...
Do I deserve any of this?
Did I do something wrong?
I can still fight.
I can still walk.
I can still cry.
Maybe I can still be happy..

The shadow asked me.
"Why are you sad?"
I answered, "I can't be happy"
She replied, "That's why. The shadow behind you is crying. Asking for help. Wanting to escape from you. But she can't because she is forever sticked to you.. always remember, you are not living for yourself. You have a shadow behind you."
I asked, "what should I do?"
She smiled. And pause. And mouthed, "be happy just for the shadow begging you to be"