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Overwhelmed

*AUTHORS POV*
She used to be a happy, energetic girl as a child. Always out with friends, not a care in the world.
But now she was the opposite.
Never leaving her room apart from to go to school. Her eyes always red and puffy from the endless nights shes spent Alone crying.

Tonight was going to be the same as every other night has been since as far back as she can remember.
She twirled it between her fingers, knowing what she had to do. Bringing it down the cool familiar touch of the blade felt like a comforting hand.
Dragging it across her already marked skin the blood began to start.
The comforting sting washed away her worries, but only for a few calm seconds. Lifting up the blade she moved to another spot, a fresh part of skin now playing victim to her depression.
Creating mulitple lines in her skin she didnt cry, but she felt numb.
Why me? What have i done to deserve this? Thoughts flashed through her mind, every thought like the night before.
How normal this was to her must be a worry to others, if they ever found out that was.
The long sleeves in summer to hide her worries. To the constant exscuses of why she didnt go out anymore.
As her last cut of the night trickled down her arm she tried to promise herself it would be the last time.
Putting down the blade she wished that this was the last.
Why is she lying to herself?
Bandaging her arm back up, it was already a deep shade of red. She was numb. Not even the slightest flinch at the burning in her arm as the material clung tightly to it.
Putting away the blade she knew it would come back out to play the night after.
This endless cycle of events now controlling her life.

*Y/N'S POV*
'Attention seeker' are we really? The last thing cutters want is attention.
Id just pulled down my sleeve as my father walked in the door.
"Y/N! We need to talk" he shouted. "What have i done now" i muttered, slowly getting up and making my way down the stairs.
"Oh, we need to have a serious talk. Ive noticed that you have been spending alot of time in your room lately. Is there a reason as to why this is?" He questioned. I thought, i cant tell him. "No" was all i said.
He didnt believe me. I knew it. "Whatever, But just to let you know im introducing you to someone in the morning so make sure you have a good nights sleep".
"Why? You know i dont do well meeting new people" i began to yell. "Well you can have a new experience. Its about time you got some friends y/n. Youve been so lonely lately. Im just trying to help you out" He began, a worried tone in his voice. "You dont know what i need. So dont get involved. Ill meet them but dont expect me to carry anything on with them. Just leave me alone" i stormed up stairs slamming my bedroom door behind me.
Why did i have to overeact. Damn it. All hes doing is trying to help me but all i do is push him away.
I wished my temper was better, i wish my depression didnt exist anymore and i wish i wasnt such a failure.
Throwing my self onto the bed i didnt have the energy to get changed. "Fuck it, ill sleep in my clothes" i mumbled into the pillow. My eyelids getting heavier, i tried to fight it. But within seconds id fallen asleep.

I wonder what tomorrow will bring

Hi guys! This is now my second work. I want to try and continue both of my books. Ill try and update both atleast once or twice a week. This opening chapter is short, but the next ones will be longer. Hope you enjoyed it so far anyways💕
Thankyou so much for reading and supporting👏