We are back home now and today is the day. We get to find out the gender of this little one. I put my make up on, get dressed, and pull out mt vlog camera.
"Hey, guys! Sorry, it's been forever since I have vlogged. I will say why in another video on my main channel explaining where I have been all this time. But today we Erik and I are finding out the gender of this little one." I say to the camera and point it down to my bump then back up at me.
"Erik and I went to the doctors to find out the gender but we wanted to be surprised and so we had my sister come and write down the gender and so now she is gonna surprise Erik and me somehow. I'm so excited. I really think it will be a boy but Erik thinks girl. Eek! I'm so excited!" I then shut off my camera and go to check on Erik. He was still asleep in bed. I sit next to him and play with his hair. I look down at him lovingly. His eyes flutter open and make contact with mine. He smiles.
"My favorite sight. You looking sexy." He jokes. I pretend to be annoyed but it's obviously fake.
"Come on babe! We have to be at the party in 2 hours!" I say excitedly. He laughs at my excitement and climbs out of bed slowly to get on my nerves. I roll my eyes laughing. He then gets ready and we still have a couple minutes till we leave. He holds me close.
"I can't wait to find out what this little one will be" he smiles as he rocks us gently back and forth.
"Same" I mumble. He kisses the top of my head. We then head over to Rachel's.
We knock on the door and she answers almost right away.
"Hey, sis! Hey, Erik!" Rachel says with a smile.
"You guys ready to find out the gender?!" she asks almost teasing us. Of course, we were ready.
"Yeah, Rach! Can you vlog it for me?" I say hand her my camera and Erik nods.
"Yes of course!"
She hands us both a plastic bag type thing to put over our clothes. She then hands us both blindfolds.
"Rachel, what is all this?" I ask.
"You will see." She says. She hands us both some sort of paint tube.
"Ok, on the count of 3 you guys are gonna squirt that on each other. And then I will count to 3 again and you both can then take off the blindfolds." She says.
"1...2...3!" she says and I begin to squeeze the paint all over Erik and I feel him spray his tube on me. After minutes of laughter its time to take off the blindfolds. The moment was here.
"Ok guys. 1...2...3! She says. I tug off my blindfold and gasp at what I saw. It was pink! A girl! A little girl! I ran over to Erik and hug him tight with tears in my eyes.
"It's a girl!" I say happily.
"Yup! Just what I thought." he smiles. All of our dreams were coming true. 5 more months to go! Let the countdown begin.
"Congratz guys! I'm so excited to meet my new niece!" says joyfully. Niece... niece. Bailey! She is gonna be so happy when I tell her! I take out my phone and facetime Jess and she picks up.
"Hey, Jess is Bailey there? I have some news for her." Just then Bailey hops into the frame.
"Hey Aunty Panties!" she smiles.
"Hey Bails, I have some good news for you!" I say with a huge smile spread across my face. She squeals.
"What is it?! What is it?!" she asks.
"Your new little cousin, It's a girl!" I say with tears in my eyes out of happiness. She screams and runs around the house telling her brothers and her parents. I just laugh. She is so cute. I love how happy she is. It makes me happy.
"Ok bails. I have to go! I'll talk to you soon"
"Ok, Aunty Panties." I hang up and hug Erik once more.
We head home.
"Erik, we need to film the video," I say to him. He nods and we set up the equipment and film the video explaining everything.
"Time to edit!" I say to Erik as I stand but he pulls me back down and hugs me.
"Please. I'll edit it. I don't want you to use your arm too much. You have physical therapy in an hour anyway. I nod. I just can't help that I'm a workaholic. I love my job and it's one where I'm like working 24/7. It's not one where you work 8 hours then someone takes over. I enjoy talking to my fans. I enjoy filming videos. I enjoy vlogging. I enjoy sharing my life with my fans. I enjoy performing. I'm so grateful to have the job I have.
I cuddle up to Erik as he edits my video then posts it. Then it is time to go to my Physical therapy. I don't wanna go but I have to. Erik and I get in the car and drive there. After about 20 minutes we arrive and we walk inside. He signs us in and we take a seat. I lean on Erik. It's my first time and Erik can tell I'm nervous. He rubs my thigh.
"It will be ok. I'll be right by your side the whole time." I nod. We then get called back and they take me out of my sling. They have me do some simple exercises and before I know it the hour is over and its time to go home.
"I told you it would be ok," Erik says to me smiling as we walk to the car.
"Yeah, yeah" I laugh getting into the car.
"Can we get some In and Out. I'm really craving it" I laugh and so does he.
"Of course, anything for you" he kisses my cheek and drives us through the drive-thru and back home.
"Should we check the comments on the video?" I ask Erik.
"If you want to but let me see them first." He says quickly grabbing the laptop and going to the comments.
"Ok?..." I say confused. As he read the comments his whole mood immediately changes. He then closes the laptop and looks at me.
"Babe, I don't think you want to look..." he mumbles. I take the laptop and open it up. My jaw drops as I read the comments. Joshua, my ex-husband, was commenting horrible and rude things. My fans were sticking up for me and I'm so grateful for that but the only thing is, Josh is invading my privacy. He just doesn't want me to be happy. The end of our relationship was rough. Josh would always complain about how I was working all the time and would never spend enough time with him which was a total lie. I have only told very few people about what Josh has done to me. Physically and mentally. I closed the computer and cuddled up in Erik's arms. The place I feel the safest. I hope all this drama goes away soon. Its already been 2 years.
