He's Mine

Chapter 17

Harry

Was it a good idea to forgive him so fast?

Of course it was he explained what happened. It was a misunderstanding. But if his good judgment hadn't blown through the bad. We would be nothing. Is this gonna happen every time something goes wrong? Is he going to run to Alex every time we have a fight. I trust him. I trust he won't do it again. That's what a good relationship needs. Trust.

Oh and love, of course.

I'm not sure I love him. But strongly care for him.. Yes. I lay awake on the couch thinking and thinking about the events of today. I grab my phone to check the time.

02:45. Jesus. How am I still awake. I sit up, running my fingers through my hair, deciding what I can do to preoccupy myself until I'm tired. My eyes go to the TV remote. Might as well catch up on some shows.

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I'm half way through another episode of Gilmore Girls when I grab my phone to check the time.

04:55!?!? Who knew I could binge watch this much Netflix. I turn off the tv, throwing the remote back to its original place, sliding back onto my back to finally fall asleep tonight. 

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Screaming. Why do people have to scream. It's not necessary.

Only getting 4 hours of sleep and being woke up by two dickheads screaming was not how I wanted to be woke up. I sigh as I barely can open my eyes with the raging sunlight shining through the blinds.

"NIALL YOU CANT JUST DO THAT!" liam shouted

"YES I CAN LOUIS IS MY BESTFRIEND I WILL DO WHAT I WANT" Niall shouted back.

I prop myself up by my forearms looking over to Niall and Liam, who are arguing very loudly in the kitchen.

"Why do you guys have to scream?" I ask quietly.

"Some people didnt get enough sleep" I add.

"Niall is trying to break Louis' phone." Liam said standing his ground still facing Niall.

"Why might I ask are you trying to break my phone Nialler." Lou said from the hallway.

"SO YOU CANT CONTACT ALEX EVER AGAIN" niall yelled, still trying to snap louis' phone.

"No need. His number is gone. " louis said. "Now shut up, you're all being very loud and give me back my phone Niall" louis added, Niall tosses him his phone.

"I actually just woke up so it wasn't me who was doing the yelling. It was those two donks." I reminded

"Wanna come sleep in my room?" Louis asked.

"Yeah, these two are too loud for me to sleep in here." I said getting up and grabbing my pillow.

"You should hear niall when he's hungry. Much louder." Louis laughed. I smiled as I followed louis to his room.

We walk into his room, which is a mess from all my clothes spread out from my suit case. 

"So haz, why didnt you sleep in here or hell even the guest room?" Louis asked as he closed and locked his door.

"I'm so used to sleeping on liam's couch back home so I went to the couch. I was still upset with you and I didnt think I could sleep in here with you." I said honestly. Louis looked at me with sad eyes. Louis walked over to me standing in front of me. He grabbed my hands and said 

"I'm so so so sorry Harry. I didn't know what I was thinking. I was upset and i was not thinking straight. It will never happen again." Louis could not look me in the eyes. I could see he was so disappointed with himself.

"Louis. It is what it is. Do not do it again. You wont get another second chance." I said squeezing his hands with mine.

"Now can we go to sleep I was up til 5 am and I'm super fucking tired." I said throwing myself onto my back.

"Yes we can. Oh and nice toys you bought." Louis said, my eyes almost jumping out of their sockets. I felt my face redden instantly.

"Oh my god you found them" I said.

"Among other things.. but we can talk about that later harold." Louis said and he situated himself so he was satisfied with his position.

"Goodnight curly." He added.

"Night lou." I said as I drifted off to another dreamless sleep.
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I jumped awake, my breathing ragged, my whole body covered in a cold sweat. Another nightmare. I can't get them to stop. I take a deep breath knowing that what was happening wasn't real. It was my brain reliving the events of my past. The past I want to forget. I move to the edge of the bed, the need to have an easy escape filling up my head. Why would I need to escape?

Well duh, if Louis tries to hurt you. I hear the little voice in my head say.

He wont. He would never.

You thought the same about Kyle. And he really hurt you.

Louis isnt Kyle.

I keep going back and forth with myself until I hear the bed squeak.

"Harry?" Louis questioned

"Hey lou, sorry I didn't mean to wake you." I said crawling back into bed with him.

"You were talking to yourself." He said, moving my hair from my face. "Why?" He asked.

"Convincing myself you wouldn't hurt me. Physically, that is." I sighed. "I get nightmares about what Kyle did and how my parents treated me." I said not looking at Louis.

"Oh harry. I would never hurt you in any way they ever didn't. Impossible for me to make such a beautiful person sad." Louis said smiling at me.

"Please dont do what he did to me " I said quietly.

"I would never do such a horrible thing to you harry." Louis said "come here." He added.

I leaned into his hug, hoping, praying that the nightmares would end. Even just for awhile.

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Yikes.

Hi shisters.

I'm a terrible writer so this took 5 years to write.

I'm just gonna say I literally forgot about this for a hot minute. But I did start chapter 18.

Enjoy.

All the love, xx.

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