Safe Haven

chapter 9

Abigail---

I'm pretty sure my throat is closing off. I want to turn around and leave but I'm frozen. The back of my mind is screaming (why didn't you bring crystal with you.) She's fearless she'd know exactly what you do. Embrace your inner crystal I tell myself, just walk away, one foot in front of the other. My train of thought is quickly interrupted but to arms coming around me and hugging me.

"What have you gone and done to your hair Abs. We're gonna have to cut it all off. You know no one wants you with short hair. How will I ever be seen next to you with that." Derek whispers in my ear so that like don't hear him.

I hold Luke's phone out to him trying not to shake. "Hhhheeeere." I swallow the lump in my throat and try not to stutter. "I gotttttaaaa go." I turn and head back to my car, moving while I can.

Luke shoves his phone in his pocket and fallows after me. "Abby what's going on! How do you know?" He cut off by Derek clapping from the pourch.

"Luke seriously if soccer doesn't work out you should be an actor. You don't have to pretend anymore. You've played you part in keeping her busy until I got here. I mean come on Abs you surely didn't think a guy like Luke here would really want anything to do with you. Well at least not without me asking him to. You remember New York." Derek

"Guess I know why you never mentioned you were in a frat."  I can feel the tears about to poor out. "Guess all zetas are a like."

"Abby I have know idea whats going on." Luke

Derek walked up behind Luke and slapped him on the back. "Luke here is the reason I found you. All the way out here in LA."

"Goodbye Luke." I jumped in my car and drive away while my leg are still carrying my weight. I need to be alone. I knew if I went back to my dorm crystal was going to be there. I don't think I could handle her asking me what's wrong.

I drove around until the tears in my eyes were making it impossible to see. As if seeing Derek wasn't enough his words kept playing over an over in my head. (remember New York?) Of course I did. Until two weeks ago I still had nightmares about it. I thought maybe Luke was the reason they had stopped, but it turns out I was wrong. (come on Abs you surely didn't think a guy like Luke here would really want anything to do with you). I slam my fist down causing my horn to honk. There's a light tap on my window. I roll down the window and say "I'm fine" without even looking.

"Just testing how many hits it takes to make your air bag come out?"

"You know science class." I turn giving Ash my best fake smile.

"You know it's ok to not be ok." ash

"What are you doing here?" Abigail

"Well im getting muffins from the bakery." Ash held up a small paper sack. " What are you doing here?"

I look around not even noticing I had drove to the bakery. "Giving Crystal and Mikey some privacy in the room." Abigail

Ash paid the meter and climbed in my passenger seat. " You seem really upset about there privacy. So tell me whats really going on." Ash

"Didn't you just tell me it's ok to not be ok?" Abigail

"It is. But you can't allow it to consume you and run your life. It's ok to not be ok but you still have to get out of the house and talk to your friends and family. Your outside, so thats step one." Ash

"Are you in school to be a therapist because you should be." Abigail

"Yeah and my clinic is going to be called the new broken scene." Ash