Missing her.
(Derek's Point of View)
"And Meredith..., some days I miss her so much I don't know if I'm going to make it."
- Derek Shepherd ( Grey's Anatomy 8x04)
I miss her.
I miss her with all my heart.
I miss her smooth silky blonde hair, sparkling blue-green eyes.
The way she passionately kisses me, the way her hands tangle in my hair and gently pull out at it.
Her dorky comments.
Her radiant smile and contagious laughter.
Most of all I miss the way we used to talk: to share about our day, laugh about stupid people, or even mock each other.
But all the good, beautiful things I miss about her, are slowly being shadowed in my mind with doubt.
Can I ever trust her again?
I want to.
God, I want to.
I don't know how to survive without her.
She was my rock, the one person who I could count on.
Every day without her feels like I'm being pulled farther down underwater; eventually, without her perfect laughter and gentle kisses... I will drown.:
a/n: sorry for a kind of sad one-shot, I might make a part 2.