Awake And Unafraid

Drown

The song is 'Drown' by Front Porch Step

The pic is of Kellin and Bailey, who are introduced in this chapter~ enjoy

--Jamie's POV--

I wake up to two arms wrapped around my waist tight, as usual. Knowing who they belong to, I turn around. And come face to face with my dad.

I scream and flail, but his grip keeps getting tighter and tighter. I cant escape. His laughs fill the room, making it feel smaller and smaller. I struggle to breathe every breath.

"You aren't betting away this time, Jamie" he laughs, his teeth turn to fangs. His eyes are gone, a black substance is dripping from the empty sockets. I scream louder and louder until my voice cracks and I cant hear anything but a slight whimper. I kick and claw at him, and he lets go.

I sit up immediately in bed, sweating, my voice soar. I look around the room and find it perfectly normal. It was all a dream. I look to my side, only to find Declan awake. I didn't notice I was crying until he wiped away a few fallen tears. I jump into his open arms and cry silently. He whispers soothingly into my ear and rubs my back as I cry.

"What happened, princess? was it a dream?" he pulls me off of him and looks into my eyes. I nod slightly and wipe the rest of my tears from my face.

"It's going to be okay. Want to go back to bed?" He sighs and tries to fix his hair, but I keep him from doing so. What, bed head is sexy to me. I laugh silently.

I look at the clock and see its 3 in the morning. Goodness. I look back at Declan and he just stares at me. I sigh and climb back into the bed and lay down on his favorite pillow. He lays down behind me and holds me close. I love it when he does that. It's too soothing. And just like that, I fell asleep.

--Ashlin's POV--

I wake up and roll over on the bed, forgetting there's no more space to roll safely onto. I crash onto the carpeted floor quickly, regretting rolling over immediately. I stand up and walk to Declan's room, right next door. I open the door slowly to find him and Jamie sound asleep tangled in each other's arms. Awww so cute. I smile and back out of Declan's room, closing the door quietly. I run down the stairs and to the kitchen, finding a pad and paper.

"Went out to boyfriend's" I mumble as I write the words. "Thank you for letting me stay. Have Jamie call me <3" I finish, finding tape and hanging it on the wall across from Declan's room. With that, I run out the door and walk a few blocks to My boyfriend, Kellin's house.

Should I tell him about me and Declan's make out session? Nah, he doesn't need to know. I run to his driveway, finding him on the front porch smoking. Remind me to beat his ass for that. Without thinking, I run into his open arms and hug him tight. I put my hands in his blonde hair. Obviously his hair was recently bleached. But I love him blonde. Its hot.

"Kellin, what did I tell you about smoking?" I take the cigarette out of his mouth and throw it in the ash tray to his left. He frowns and looks at me, wiping his hair from his eyes as usual. I kiss his lips quickly before sitting down on the patio bench.

"I missed you, Kell. " I say suddenly. He walks over to me and picks me up, then sitting down and placing me on his lap. He wraps his arms around my waist tight.

"I missed you too, Ash." He smiles and kisses my cheek.

"I love you." I smile and pull his arms tighter around my small waist. The wind blows my black, freshly dyed hair in front of my face. Yeah. I dyed it before my dad came home drunk yesterday. No more neon highlights!

"I love you too, Ashlin."

Just as he finishes that one sentance, a beautiful blonde opens the door in just a small towel, barely covering her arse.

"Kellin, baby, come back. I need you." she whines and closes her eyes, obviously not noticing me on his lap.

The blonde has a bigger chest and ass than me, obviously. But what is she doing here? I recognize her from our school. That girl is such a slut. Her name is Bailey Roust. Shes the school whore, slept with almost everyone.

"Kellin, what the hell is that slug doing here?!" I yell, jumping up and pushing Bailey back into the house, making the towel fall. But I could care less. I push her against a wall, and just as im about to scream profanities at her, tears start to form into eyes. I drop to the floor and start crying.

Kellin runs over to where I am on the floor, but I push him away.

Between sobs i manage to speak. "Why, Kellin? You said you loved me. So why are you sleeping with this....whore?" I start to cry again.

"Ashlin..." he starts. "I know you don't want to have sex, and me being a guy. I do stupid things." He laughs and rubs his neck. "I needed to do it. Ya know. I needed to feel the pleasure, and I know you won't help me with that one." he looks into my eyes with obvious fear. No regret, but fear.

"You don't understand why I don't want to have sex, Kellin. You don't know why I'm afraid if intimacy." I scream in his face, making him fall back.

"Kellin. Why are you talking to this no-good whore? You have me now!" Bailey runs to Kellin, hugging him tight. But he pushes her away and crawls back to me.

"Ashlin. Why are you so afraid?" He asks honestly. I sigh and try not to cry. I've never told anyone except for Declan what happens at home. Not even Jamie.

"Because...." I stutter. I don know if I should. I start to cry again and he tries to hold me. But I push him away this time.

"Kellin, why are you even talking to her. Shes no good like I told you. You're mine now. Let's leave it at that. Plus she wont even touch you. I will. Shes a useless bitch!" Bailey yells happily like the cheerleader she is.

"SHUT YHE HELL UP BAILEY. LEAVE AND NEVER COME BACK. I MEAN IT THIS TIME" He yells at her. She looks at him, dumbfounded. She takes the towel and storms upstairs, yelling at me.

I stand up and run to the door but he grabs my wrist, not letting me go.

"Tell me why, Ashlin. Before you leave and never come back." He looks at me longingly, like he doesn't want me to go.

"Because...." I stutter. "Because my dad rapes me when hes drunk." I cry and run out the door, going back to Declan's house.