Camila’s POV:
I can’t even begin to think about whats going to happen in two days. It’s so sudden that it doesn’t feel real. Seeing everything that’s happening on the news over there is horrible and scary as fuck. I was so scared to turn on the news every day and watch the newest report, scared that I might see Chris’s name up on that screen during the tribute for the fallen. But now the thought of my name being up there? It’s something so unexplainable. I can’t be on that screen. I can’t! Seeing Lauren in the emotional state she was when Chris left was horrible. But to think of what she might do while we’re both there is horrific.She always acts like a bad ass. Strong, protective. But that’s only what she shows to people. She has so many sides to her that when you finally reach the real genuine her it’s beautiful. Yes, she is strong, protective, funny, genuine, and kind. But she’s also scared, sensitive, lost, and sometimes broken. I would never be able to forgive myself if something happened to Lauren.
In two days I’m going to be shipped out to a camp. And then two days from then I’ll be shipped out to war. Everything is moving too fast. I wish I could just slow down time a little, just enough to show Lauren how much I truly love her. And how much I will fight to get back to her.
It’s just now that I’ve really started to let everything sink in. I got my letter of service from the U.S army today. I just wish I got to it before Lauren did. Walking in to see her hysterical on the floor with the letter open in her lap broke me. Of course we knew that all this was happening and that all of this was real. But actually getting the written information and the actual letter with my name in bold letters demanding my service just made it all the more unrealistic. I had to pry it out of her hands to read it. She wouldn’t let it go and at first I didn’t know why it was that big of a deal, but as soon as I finally forced it out of her grasp and read it I realized. It was written more like a contract, a letter making it seem that I will die over there.
“Dear Camila Cabello,
We are informing you that you have been serviced into action from the U.S army to serve this country in the active war. We never had come to the option that we had to draft women into war. But because of the intensity of the war and the lack of soldiers we now have, this is our last option. We are sorry that this is so sudden. But we hope that you understand and help our country win this war!
You are demanded at the airport on Saturday Morning at 4:00 am on March 3rd. Your ticket is enclosed into this envelope. You will be immediately shipped out to Georgia to begin training. On Monday at 3:00 am you will be finally be shipped out to the base in Syria for the amount of the war.
You will be allowed one letter per month to send out to your love ones. But we cannot guarantee a reply back.
The other envelope enclosed is for you to fill out and have in the mail by Friday at 2:00 pm March 2nd.
It explains your duties and promises. You will need to have one person down that you want to receive the letters. Also you will need one person down to receive your personal’s if something were to happen to you. And please make sure you have a will written out and placed in the safety of your loved ones for there is no guarantee you will make it back.
We are happy and proud to have you serving our country.
Safe travels! – U.S Army”
They make it seem like I definitely won’t make it back. They make it sound horrible but then at the end they say “Safe travels!”?? Like OKAY thanks! I will make sure the plane ride over to my death is safe and comfy!
