Warning : if you are not okay with :
Gender Identity , LGBT ( lesbian - gay - bisexual - transgender ) , self harm , suicidal thoughts .
Please go back and don't hate on me .
I warned you ^^^^
And every hate comment would be deleted thank you.Also if someone ever gonna read this if you wanna talk about something hugs* i would totally appreciate it
just msg me !Author's note (em) : so here i am at 3:05 am , writing this and got class at 8am tomorrow . Cause why not ._.
• events are true and inspired from my life time
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Part 1
Since i was young . I knew i was different . I wasn't like all of those girls . I felt it inside but i had never realised what was that .
My dad has always feared i would be be boyish or whatever shit he thought .
I always wanted to have karate lessons with my cousins ( two brothers ) one younger than me by a year he is 15 and one older 17 .
Since i was born i have played , hang out , spent all my free time with them.
I was in the 5th year
// **Start of the flashback** //
"Oh my god , really !! so we're going to register next week in the karate club " screamed 10 years old me to my cousins Blaine 9 y/o and Angel 11 y/o .
They both said excitedly "yeeeeesss!!"
I jumped up and down and screamed at the top of my lungs
"IM GONNA TELL THIS TO MY DAD AND MUM!! "
and i started running to go back home not even stopping for 1sec
As i got home i found my dad brushing his teeth in the toilet and i squealed
"DAD! DAD ! Guess WHAAAT! "
"What ! What happened Emily! " he asked me somehow curious cause of my hyper state
" weeeeeelll me and Blaine and Angel decided toooo register in the karate . Sooo all im asking can i register with them " i told him so fast that i didn't catch a breath and then gasped for air .
He looked at me with disgust and narrowed eyes . My excitement died . And my heart sank to my stomach . The tension was so high that it choke me .
"What the hell Emily! For christ sake you're a girl and girls don't do such a stuff , you hear me! " he spoke with cold , bitter tone that it made me shiver . And spat on the sink.
I was mentally panicking
I couldn't show him weakness but i gave up and whined "buut daaad please i heard girls register too and that's okay "
Now he yelled and made me jump backwards
" NO! I SAID NO! MEANS NO ! Im not gonna let you register in that damn stupid karate club? You're going to be like a boy , walks like a boy , talks like them , violent . Girls don't do that!!!" .
I swallowed the lump that was forming in my throat and nodded .
// **End of the flashback** //
I was never brave enough to stand in front of my dad or reply to him or disobey
Or
Ill end up bruised .
Bruised arms , The stitches between my eyes . But mostly
Mental abuse.
From everyone . Family . Classmates . Friends . Society . Humans , who should support you and be tolerated but we are treated like materials.
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Author note
THANK YOU SO much if you read this and i really bloody appreciate it .
Also i made it quite short idk ._. Its just the beginning .
Moreover im not writing this for votes or being "wattpad famous"
I just want to see if idk someone will understand .
Bleh bleh..
>>>> i hope you' ll have a good day if you're seeing this . Smile . Lift your chin . You can be strong . You are not alone in this!Kaay c: au revoir mes amis
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