if you leave | E.D

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boredom.

what does it really mean?

when you get tired of something, right?

so if you've been at the pool for too long, you've already done everything there that you can. so once you get tired of being there, that's boredom.

as a kid i always thought boredom meant something wasn't fun anymore. like playing twister or uno for hours in a row. or coloring on the same page in a disney coloring book for too long.

but as i grew up?

i realized there's more to it.

maybe this is just my dramatic side speaking.

but boredom?

it's totally different once you're a teenager who has real life experiences and relationships.

wait.

did i just say relationships?

oh yeah, that reminds me.

i have a boyfriend.

his name is ethan. ethan grant dolan. he has short brown hair and dark hazel eyes. he's actually pretty tall, and muscular.

he's the perfect guy, i thought.

i've always thought that.

ever since two years ago, when i developed a crush on him and we started dating.

two whole years.

i know what you guys are thinking.

"wow, two years. must be growing strong. how cute"

no; actually.

he's in love with me.

and yeah. i love him, i really do.

but sometimes i feel like i'm not in love with him anymore. like i'll question our relationship sometimes.

i'm not sure, i guess it's all in my head.