The Vampire

Chapter 38

Jessy's POV

I stare at him across the bed laying next to me, the quietness had my heart beating louder and I swear he could hear it. He had his eyes close, his face is soften, no hint of anger or sadness just peacefulness. I would imagine his face looking like this as a child, care free without a worry in the world. 

His breath fan against my face, the scent of him intoxicating my surroundings. I don't know how we got here in the first place. I remember the crying, the self worthless feeling I have inside but he quickly shove my thoughts into the pits of hell calming the chatter in my mind. He didn't use his ability to calm me down, he didn't erase the thoughts I have. He told me what he sees in me and he had me believing. Those words meant more to me then he could imagine. 

The aching feeling in my chest that was begining to numb getting use to the pain but only to have it come rushing back like a tidal wave. It's slowly dissapearing and I'm hopping I will never feel it again. 

This man right here took the pain out with those words he held with such certainty he made me believe all of it. Even the times he had lied to me for my so called protection to keep me from losing control, I still can count on him, I still can believe every word he says and I don't know wether that's just down right stupid or a hopless desperation to have me believe his words are all honest. But I do anyway, I believe it all. 

"Stare all you want baby I know I'm hot." His lips move into a smirk his eyes still closed. 

"I wasn't staring" I blush burying my face on the duvet. 

He open one eye his smirk has gone even wider making me roll my eyes to the ceiling. I can't feel his eyes gazing every part of my expose skin making me burn under his eyes. We stayed like this for a while with him staring at me and with me staring up at the ceiling.

"When this is all done what next?" He asked the question no one asked me before. 

As I thought about it, nothing came into my head as I try picture my life after everything and it comes out blank. I can't picture a life without this hate, without Lincoln tormenting me every step of the way. I can't picture another life better then this. How sad is that? 

He saw my struggle to come up with the answer so he answered for me. 

"I can picture you going to college just like you wanted, any where in the world. I can picture you decorating those walls and you can even bring Kat along to be your roomate because God knows that girl needs education in her life." He joked easing the tension making me laugh.

Actually laugh and it felt so foriegn to me now. I look over to him both of us smiling at each other. I turn to him finding comfort in those warm eyes looking back at me. 

"I can picture you doing things you've been dreaming of since you hit puberty, all awkward and clumsy." He grinned my heart pounding finding it difficult to control it with him looking at me like that. 

"You picture all of those things?" I look at him in amazement that he could see that and I couldn't. 

"That's what you want right? You could do anything you want in life you just got to see it." He whispered. 

I admire him for a little while my eyes tracing every inch of his face studying every trace of him. He did the same and we lay there looking at each other in silence. It was like we were in another planet, just the two of us. No vampires, no humans, no witches and no hunters live in this world I created. It's like a little world of just us. It felt perfect. 

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Michael glance up from his phone to me his face softening, I felt kind of guilty for pushing him away like that. Michael is the one person I don't hide things from even if I try to, he finds out anyway. I sometimes wonder that he's the one that could see to the future not Niki.