Only Time Will Tell

A Couple of Words

I couldn't stop myself, Mia's gaze was so hypnotizing I couldn't look away. She leaned
in closer, and her perfect tan turned to a bright pink as I leaned in. We were inches away now, and she whispered because this moment not only took away her voice but her thoughts as well.
"Jake..." she said, her sweet breath landing on my cheeks.
I didn't think about anything else but Mia as I leaned in further, forcing our lips to meet. I lightly pushed her back against the bed and rested my hand on her thigh. It's crazy how the tables turn.
Mia put her arms on my back, balancing herself as we made out in the darkness. I had kept the lights off because I was at such a sour part of my life that I didn't feel like I deserved light. It was stupid, and I know that people go through these kinds of things all of the time, but everyone handles it differently. My thoughts yelled at myself, yelled at me for not figuring out sooner, for not asking her out sooner, for not loving her sooner. Her. Bella. Holy shit Bella!
Our moment was briefly interrupted when I began to think about Bella, our moments together, memories made to be broken by two words: I'm moving.
"No, I-"
"Jake it's okay, calm down," she said, and I knew I shouldn't have done this, but for some stupid reason, I did.
I looked at Mia, I took a glance at her lips, and they were almost magnetic, pulling me to them without hesitation. But then I remembered Bella, what we have, or what we had. "What am I doing?" I asked as I pulled away. "What are we doing?"
"Oh my gosh what are we doing?" Mia asked aloud, sitting back up on my bed, daring not to look at my face.
"Hopefully not doing anything dirty!" My mother said as she opened the door and peered into my room, resting her eyes on Mia.

At that Mia left the room, her face red with a mix of shock and embarrassment.

"What it something I said?" My mom asked, taking my annoyed expression as a yes, "oh, oops. Sorry, honey," 

She then closed the door behind her, leaving myself in darkness, but this time no one was there with me. The time alone helped me expand all trains of thought I had, and I couldn't stop thinking about the moment Mia and I had. Was it just lust, or was I actually getting over Bella already? But we hadn't even broken up. Then it all hit me. We didn't have to. We didn't have to say the words so many couples say when it's time to end it. We'll naturally fall apart. We already have been. It was inevitable, Bella's parents had made it unstoppable. 

It's amazing how two words can make a life turn around and change directions.