I actually quit. I actually wanted to die. I was ready to end it all. My last week of this dreadful year I spent just alone... and crying. This year was just hit after hit. Everything time I felt like I was on cloud nine, I came crashing down to a point where I just stopped writing. It was not worth it. Writing is my outlet to feel how I feel. I didn't want to feel anymore. Life had finally done it, it broke me.
"Down For Maintenance" was part of if not the main reason I disappeared from this site the first time. Everything was crumbling. I can't even remember all of the details all I remember is wanting nothing to do with anything for a while. I wrote some things down.. nothing i liked. I was very lonely after this poem until I got to college. Even then I just felt bad most of the time. Actual happiness because hard to find.
"Light Up" was initially left unfinished. I started it, got distracted then before I could get back to it, I faced rejection and my heart was broken. I didn't like leaving poems unfinished. So I went back to it so I could publish it. I tried to go back to that night. I was so happy that night.Finishing the poem felt like a punishment for being so
"Breakdown" was my final cry of pain to the world. That's how I ended my year. I just wanted an ounce of happiness.
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A Dark Rose Blooms (poetry)
PoetryA piece of me. A place to open all my wounds and share my joy. All the poetry here is personal to me. Writing is an escape for me, and only through writing can I put my thoughts and emotions out into the world honestly. Each piece is dated, the day...
