One of those nights (Shawn mendes)

Twelve

Shawn and y/n are over, hmm. Don't give up on this story just yet though, I have many chapters more to come! Also I know that it takes a while before you find out the sex of the baby but for the sake of the story we're not going to acknowledge that.
"I found out it was a boy today, we always wanted a boy."
"Why haven't you told him yet?"
"I'm scared"
"Of what y/n?"
"His reaction, it involves talking to him again which I'm not ready for, what if he wants me to move back in? What if he wants me to abort it or give it up for adoption?" I pause "there are so many things that could go wrong if I tell him. Shawn not knowing is probably best for both of us right now"
It had been a few weeks since me and Shawn had broken things off, and I was staying at a friends place in la while looking for apartments. I visited my mom for a few days but I couldn't deal with her constant codling, so I came to stay with my best friend. The only way my mom had allowed me to leave however was if I agreed to start seeing a therapist so that I at least had someone to talk to.
"Y/n I get that's how you feel but I think it might be best for you to at least try, you don't have to tell him yet but tell a few other people you're close with , or practice telling him in a mirror. It might sound cheesy but it has been proven to help" Dr. Bradshaw suggested. I nod and we decide to finish up the session for the day.
I walk outside and get into my car, my phone starts to ring and I recognize the number as Karen (Shawn's mom). Oh god, I don't know if she even knew we broke up, I had told her I was pregnant in a group chat with Allyia before I had even told Shawn. Had she told him? Did he tell her we broke up? My mind started to race as I picked up the phone.
"Y/n!! Ahh! Oh my god I just found the cutest onesie that says 'my moms in love with Shawn Mendes' and I just had to get it for you guys! I'm shipping it off tomorrow" Karen screams through the phone, my eyes start to well up as she talked about us being together.
"Awe Karen that's adorable," I swallow trying not to break down in tears "but you really shouldn't do that, not yet"
"Wait, y/n have you not told him yet? What the hell? I thought that was why he postponed the last part of his tour, why else would he have done that?" She asks
"I-um-I-i don't know" I break down and start to cry thinking about the reasons he had to cancel the show
"Oh sweetheart what's wrong? Are you two fighting?" Her voice sounds so sweet,
"We-we broke up" I try not to sound like I'm aggressively sobbing.
"What?? Why?? When??" She frantically asks,
"Last week I went to tell him I was pregnant and events transpired and we broke up" I try to explain in the kindest way possible.
"What events?"
"Look you should just talk to Shawn about this, the story makes him sound kind of like a dick and you're his mom so I don't want you to get the wrong idea, there were some things I chose not to tell him about that night seeing as he blacked out the whole things, but you should hear it from him. I have to go" I hang up on her before she could get a word in, starting my car and driving downtown to my friends apartment.
I get home and meet up with my friend whose in the living room,
"Hey boo how was you're appointment?" She asks from the couch
"Just more of her trying to make me feel bad for not telling him I'm pregnant yet, ya know the usual" I laugh,
"Oh always fun" she says sarcastically "so what were you thinking for dinner?"
"I was thinking of ordering a pizza and doing face masks, care to join me?"
"Ugh why do you ever have to move, your such a fun roommate" y/f/n whines
"Well there isn't a lot luck with the apartment hunting so you'll probably have me for a while longer" I say.
We lay on the couch for like three hours watching random tv and eating pizza. The movies that were playing was on a weird throwback tv channel. They had old movies, interviews, tv shows, and news shows, things that most stations don't play. I think you can't tell where I'm going with this, we were laughing about something when I tuned back into the show.
"Well for me it was about our 4 month anniversary, neither of us are very trusting or know how to say how we feel, But that night I just knew. I was seeing her after about 6 weeks, and we we're having a cute movie night to celebrate. We like built a fort and ordered a pizza. I think we were watching a silly old Disney movie that y/n had seen so many times she knew all the words to it. And the end scene when they got together she smiled and looked up at me, and all the sudden I just knew. She was the one"
"You've never told me tha-" my voice from the tv was cut off as y/f/n scrambles to turn the interview off.
"Oh my god y/n I am so sorry!!" She screeched,
"It's okay, I think I'm okay" I nod "but I think I need to go talk to Shawn tomorrow"
"Wha- Wait y/n you do NOT need to do that" she tries to convince me,
"Yes I do, it's silly for me not to tell him, getting this off my chest will help me feel better" I pause "but I need to go to bed soon so I have enough strength and courage to do it, and you have a job interview tomorrow so come on, let's go"
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Balloons. Basic but simple. I grab a simple ballon that says 'it's a boy' and go to the check out.
"Oh my god congratulations!!" The cash register yells "so exciting"
"Yeah" I half smile, I walk out to my car and drive over to my old apartment building. I sit there for a good solid 30 minutes trying to brace myself for what was about to happen before I decided to go in. I knew he was home cause he had posted on his private snapchat about how he loved his lazy apartment days. He lived on the second floor of the building, and ever since we broke up I refuse to use elevators so I took the stairs. I was about halfway up when I trip over my own feet and fall down. I hit my stomach and arms on the way down mostly, no serious injuries that I had known of. But I when I tried getting up my arm seized and I figured that I should get an x-ray just in case.
I leave the building completely forgetting that I had let the balloon float up to the ceiling when I fell. It took like three hours for someone to come and examine me in the emergency room.
"Hi there I am dr. Pierce, what seems to be the problem here?" A tall man asked me,
"Um I fell down the stairs and I just wanted to make sure everything was okay with me, this wrist hurt" I held up my left hand.
"Okay, do you have any medical conditions we should know about before we start this?" He said kindly
"Yes I am pregnant" I respond
"Ohh well okay, you said you fell down the stairs right?" I nod "how hard did you hit the ground?"
"I don't know, I guess hard enough to injure my wrist" I answer slightly confused.
"Okay, I think we should give you an x-ray and maybe an ultrasound just to check on the baby make sure it's alright" the doctor suggests. I sit there and wait for the doctors to come back with the results front both tests. I start to feel dizzy and when I go to stand up I pass out, I'm not sure why but I remember being awoken being rushed into surgery.
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I woke up in a hospital bed the next day, confused as to what had happened. I remember going to Shawn's apartment, and then I remember falling down the stairs, I think that I came here after that, but I'm not sure what exactly happened. A guy in a pair of blue scrubs comes into my room after a few minutes,
"Oh hey your awake, excellent" he says with a smile on his face "I'm just here to take your vitals and then I'll send the doctor in"
After he's finished with everything he leaves my room and sends the other doctor in, she walks over to my bed and looks down at me. She doesn't have a very happy expression on her face, so I'm assuming that she doesn't have great news for me.
"Hi there y/n, do you know what happened yesterday? Do you remember anything?" I shrug
"Well you took a pretty bad tumble down the stairs and you got dinged up a bit" she pauses "I called you emergency contact if you would like me to go get him before I tell you this"
"Tell me what?"
"When you fell, you hit your stomach very hard, causing the baby to go into distress. So to this we had to examine you further, and we discovered that you had and ectopic pregnancy. It would explain why you fell and got dizzy, but unfortunately we were unable to save the baby. I am so very sorry for your loss."
(An ectopic pregnancy is a pregnancy in which the fetus develops outside the uterus, typically in a Fallopian tube. They can be very dangerous for the moms and often lead to miscarriages)
Mathew Espinosa walks into the room after a few minutes and sits down on the bed next to me. Shawn made him my emergency contact since they were best friends and Matt hardly ever traveled so if anything were to happen he would be here for me.
"Hey sweetheart" he says stroking my hair,
"Hi" I pout still half crying,
"Awe honey it's alright!! Come here" he pulls me into a hug. Me and him got really close over the few years Shawn and I were together. He was like one of my best friends now a days, probably the only one of my friends That didn't know I was pregnant. He sits there for over an hour listening to me mope and doesn't complain even once, he really was one of my best friends.
Another chapter is done, it was interesting. Next one will also probably be interesting.