One of those nights (Shawn mendes)

Thirteen

This chapter is gonna be a bit all over the place, but hang in there with me cause it will all work out alright. I updated the last chapter too, explaining what happened to y/n so you should definitely read that.
Flashback:
"Ya know, your producer called me this morning" I say setting down the plates of food on the dinner table
"Oh yeah? What did he have to say?" Shawn asks,
"Well he was trying to find new talent and he remembered when we sang together on the late night show, and he wanted to know if I wanted to start making music" I respond.
"That's an amazing opportunity what did you say?" He grabs my hand and starts tracing circles in the skin of my palm,
"It is a great opportunity, but we're trying to start a family and I'm not sure adding anything more would be a good idea, so I told him that I would think it over and let him know" I answer.
"Well I think you should take it, you'd be a freakin fantastic singer, we could even do collabs together and go on tour at the same time" Shawn starts getting overly excited and I just laugh watching him list off things that we could do if I took this deal.
"Shawn" I giggle stopping him from continuing "I still don't know if I'm going to take it, so let's not get ahead of ourselves okay?"
"Okay, I'm just excited that's all, I will support you no matter what you decide to do" he kisses me softly and we go back to taking about the trip we were planning with Shawn's family.
End flashback
I sit there staring at the contact for island records contemplating whether or not I should call them. My only reason for saying no was my romantic life which seems to be over no, which means there's nothing stopping me. I open the number and decide that there would be no harm in at least setting up a meeting with them. I end up talking to a guy named David who is the president, and we set up a meeting for tomorrow morning at 11.
After my breakup with Shawn I tried to write music but it didn't work very well, I tried to do it again after the miscarriage. I ended up with one song originally wrote by me, about how I was feeling with all of the things going on. It was actually pretty good but it was also pretty hard to sing it due to the fact that I'm often emotionally unstable.
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"Wow y/n seriously just wow, I'm so impressed by this song!! You wrote it?" David exclaimed,
"I did although it was really the only one that came out good, I had ideas for others but they were poorly executed" I laugh.
"Ya know y/n I think you would work perfectly with this company, how would you like to read over a contact and consider signing with us?" He asked excitedly,
"Yeah that sounds great, I will have my lawyer go over it with me and I'll think about it, I will call you back to set up a meeting" I nod
"Fantastic!! I hope you agree to come on with us, you're free to go" he smiles and shakes my hand enthusiastically.
When I step out into the hallway I look down at the papers he handed me and read them while walking down the hall. I bump into someone's shoulder and drop the paper, when I go down to pick it up I see who I had walked into. It was none other than the infamous Shawn Mendes!! How exciting.
"Y/n?!" His eyes widen "wh-what what are you doing here?!?"
"Shawn, hey um hi" I look up at him, this was the first time I had seen him since the break up and it was terrible. I hadn't expected it to be as hard it was to see him, but at least it wasn't going to be that often.
"Why are you here y/n?" His surprise had faded and the tone of disappointment set in,
"I was meeting with someone about signing to this label" I say.
"Oh woah I didn't know that would actually be happening, isn't that a bit much since we're starting the show soon?" He asks,
"What show?" I raise an eyebrow at him
"The one we signed the contract and paper for a few months ago, we promised we'd start meeting to write the scripts in August" he answers. Well fuck. That is something I completely forgot about.
"Oh my god of course! I forgot" I roll my eyes thinking about the fact that I can't get out of it.
"Yeah" He half grins,
"Well it was.. I'm gonna go, I'll see you later" I turn around and start to walk away
"I miss you" He says looking at me longingly.
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I read over the contract with my lawyer and the companies legal team the day after the meeting hoping to start working with them sooner than later. I ended up agreeing to the terms and signing with them during the meeting. Today is my first official day of working on my new album. The company wanted me to meet with a few song writers today to get a feel of what everyone and everything is like there. I open the door to the studio and am met with two beaming smiles.
"You must be y/n  y/l/n it is so nice to meet you" one of the guys says reaching out to shake my hand,
"I heard you sing on the late night show, you're a very talented gal" the other one says.
"Oh well thank you! It's nice to meet you both too, what are you names"
"Oh I'm Caden"
"And I'm Anthony"
We talk for a little while before starting to try and get to know each other better, they won't always work with me together it will usually just depend on which on fits the task.
"Okay so let's get started on the music, Dave told us you already had one song written, can we hear it?" Caden asks.
"Okay yeah I wrote this song when was like pretty mad and also very sad, so it doesn't really reflect my emotions properly but um it was a good song so here we go " I say before getting ready to sing.
"You got your issues, I get that, but so do I
That's not an excuse to hide behind your ugly pride
How was it so easy, so damn easy for you to lie?
When I gave you my heart, my trust, you just wasted my time

But if I'm being honest
I miss you, but I hate you at the same time
You broke your promise
Now I don't know what was real or a lie
If I'm being honest, I don't want to let go
But I fell in love with someone that I don't know
If I'm being honest

There's no coming back from this
You did what you did and you gotta live with it
There's no coming back from this
You did what you did and you gotta live with it

You call me crazy, but you made me feel this way
I gave you so much, it wasn't enough, all you did was take
Messed with my head, you made your bed, now in it you lay
You're all alone, ignoring your phone, you've got nothing to say

But if I'm being honest
I miss you, but I hate you at the same time
You broke your promise
Now I don't know what was real or a lie
If I'm being honest, I don't want to let go
But I fell in love with someone that I don't know
If I'm being honest

There's no coming back from this
You did what you did and you gotta live with it
There's no coming back from this
You did what you did and you gotta live with it

So tired of trying and trying
While you were denying that you never lied
And now you've gone in hiding
You can't even try to fix what you did
You ripped me to pieces, yet you're the one speechless
Now my nights are sleepless
'Cause you saw my weakness, a little naive
And I gave more than I had to give
I hate you, what you did
And I can't get over it
But the sad fact is
I can't get you out of my head

There's no coming back from this
You did what you did, now I gotta live with it"

Anthony and Caden looked floored by the end of the song,
"Woah y/n that was amazing!!" Anthony exclaims with a huge smile,
"Seriously it was really really good, the emotions you show just wow, that one is going on the album 100% for sure" Caden shouts and we all laugh a little. We start working on the ideas for a few more songs but it soon got late and we wrapped it up for the day.
Oof I am sorry that it took so long to finish writing that one. I will update more often I promise, I hope y'all liked it though. Also the song that y/n 'wrote' was if i'm being honest by Anna Clendening