Self-help

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I'm sorry I'm a burden. I'm sorry I'm not good enough. I'm never enough... My thoughts and feeling disregarded. I get the message, I don't fit in here. i don't fit in anywhere. I'm a puzzle piece with nowhere to go.

I'm so fucking sick of feeling like this and taking the people I care about down with me... they don't deserve it. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. Maybe things would just be better off if I wasn't around.

I tried, I promise I did. I tried so fucking hard to put a smile on my face and pretending and saying I'm okay when really I just want to close my eyes and never open them again... and they say I don't need lie. They say that they're there for me but if I tell them what's really on my mind and what's going on inside my head they freeze. They no longer look into my eyes, no longer think of me the same or see me the same.

What would happen if I just walked away from everything? Would you let your gaze follow my last breath for even a second? You wouldn't have to put up with me anymore, you wouldn't have to waste your time or energy thinking of a way to tell me you don't want me around.

If I go, everyone will be able to forget about me in the blink of an eye and move on. So I'm sorry for coming into your life, I'm not wanted here or anywhere. Because I'm useless, worthless, no good, a burden, a bitch, a basket case, ugly, fat, and one day... dead...