Love creates dependence

Teen thoughts

Do you even wonder why so many people think love is easy to understand, and doesn't need any efforts?
Well, I wish that person wasn't me.
At least some years ago, when I didn't realize what are the responsibilities to 'love' someone. I was 16 back then, when I just made my first impressions about loving someone. Back then, I met a girl from my highschool, that seemed innocent. We started talking, to see if we could become lovers. Things were slowly improving, and I started to be quite sure that we will succeed. A few months later, she accepted me as who I was, at least that's how I saw the things then. I was blinded by her words and thoughts that were only lies. The beginning of the 'love' felt like in my dreams. Late night conversations, wonderful eyes, all I've wanted at that moment. Nothing more, nothing less.
These moments always come with a price.. Arguments are inevitable in a relation, and as I thought, we broke up at first argument.
Time passed, girls appeared, I still felt lost, and numbnees seemed to take over me completely. I began feeling insecure about myself, and decisions were more in my disadvantage. Growing up made my ideas and concepts about 'love' more mature, and I realized that it wasn't that simple, but we, humans make love hard to understand. Our real demons lie in our minds, and we shouldn't let them control us. Most of the nights I felt how my toughts, dreams and everything that I hoped for started to disappear slowly.