Turn Me Out

About Lastnight

Violet

These days I feel so lost, numb and tired. It's as if everything was getting worse for me. I started cutting my wrist again and wore long sleeve blouses. The once vibrant "nothing can stop me" bitch has became a turtle, totally in my shell not wanting to even step outside and that bastard of a cheater had the nerve to be calling me and showing up here talking about he misses me and Savannah isn't what he thought, damn it I miss me!

"Hey baby" Sapphire said entering the car kissing me.

I simply smiled and drove off.

"I notice you're wearing a lot of tall sleeves lately." She said looking at me crossing her arms

"Uh- yeah my new style." I said

"Stop the car Vi."

"Nah"

"Stop the fucking car, stop the fuckinnnnnnggg car." Sapph screamed and I stopped the car.

"Pull your sleeves up Vi."

"Pull, your sleeves up Violet Brown!" She said with tears in her eyes

I silently pulled up my sleeves and exposed my fresh and old scars.

"Again Vi?" Sapph blinked her tears away

"I'm sorry Sapphire. I'm so so so sorry." I said hitting the wheels repeatedly and crying.

"I promise I won't do it again." I busted in tears I couldn't hold this anymore

"You said that the last time Violet , we're gonna get you help baby okay I'm here Violet you can talk to me okay?" She said hugging me and i leaned on her shoulder

"By the way Sapph?"

"Yea?" She asked

"You have a glow, what happened?" I asked driving off smirking

"I lost it" she said bending her lips together

"What? I thought you were saving it for marriage oh my god you slut." I said laughing

She busted out laughing

"When I woke up there were little blood drops on my panties and it felt like a empty space or like a hole is down there." She said

"Oh my god you broke your virginityyyyyy!!!" I screamed and tried to dance in my seat

I was happy for the first time in a long while and I was so happy for my bestfriend to share this moment with her. I know it would be awkward in class now so we're no longer sitting at the front instead we are switching to the back. More focus for him and better view for Sapph. We got out and head to class before everyone else, it took a split second for the auditorium to get full, and in no time Mr.Jackson walked in with a beautiful lady beside him she had clear ocean blue eyes, long perfect black hair, nice pink plumped lips and a well toned physique.

"Good morning, everyone this is my wife Mrs. Jasmine Jackson " Mr.Jackson said

I froze and was scared to even look at Sapphire. I closed my eyes and opened to hug Sapphire but she got up and rushed out with Mr.Jackson behind.

Sapphire

I felt my heart froze and my oxygen cut off I quickly got up and rushed out into the hallway to catch a breathe.

"Sapphire!" Elijah said

"Don't you dare say my name Elijah." I said walking away out of breathe when he grabbed me.

"I'm so sorry she popped up this morning to discuss our trial date, we have a lecture together this morning about a topic she is well experienced on so I thought what's better than to bring a victim." He said

"Ok so the next time you have a lecture on liars and broken heart remember to carry this victim." I said walking away

"I DIDN'T LIE SAPPHIRE!!" he shouted down the hall

I didn't know where I was going but I needed to get out of here and fast.

Violet

Class was over and I headed straight to my dorm after calling Sapph five times, poor girl just lost your virginity and the heartbreak didn't wait one second. I entered my room and locked the door behind me, I gestured to my closet and took off my clothing only to feel a pair of hands around my waist and his member pressed against me, I quickly spun around only to meet with Logan's eyes,

"what the fuck do you want? How did you get in here?? " I asked annoyed

"I want you Vi and you forgot to take the spare key I made." He said

"Logan get out!!" I screamed

He held his hand against my mouth and pressed me against the wall using his free hand to finger me. I tried pushing him off but he pressed himself harder against me so I couldn't get off the wall, he then dragged me by my hair to the bed as I kicked and screamed he turned up the music and flung me on the bed causing me to hit my head on the bed frame and then everything went black.

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I woke up the next morning feeling sore all over especially my vagina and blood all over the sheets, my life has come to this? Really? What do I have living for? I feel so alone and empty. I quickly got up and changed the sheets and washed off rubbing the rape off my skin like it was possible. I drove to Sapphire's and she looked a mess.

"What's going on Sapphire?" I asked

"He has his divorce hearing today he wanted me to come but I didn't feel like." She said

"He really expected you after yesterday?" I asked

"Oh she was brought because she was a victim of rape and that was his topic so." She said shrugging

The word rushed through my body and I felt disgusting I wanted to throw up however I held my composure and relaxed.

"You ok Vi? You have cold sweat washing you, look I know its hard going to therapy but its needed." Sapph said

I just nodded and drove off, few minutes later we pulled up to the doctor's office and did my session. I told the doc I wasn't sleeping so she prescribed something for me. We went and got my medication then we went to the beach, we had no class today so I wanted to just go to the beach I relaxed on the sand and listen to music with Sapphire and we played a little, we then went to Starbucks, then the mall, then I dropped her off

"Hey Sapphire?" I called out

"Yeah Vi." She said smiling back at me

"I love you and always will." I said

She knitted her brows "I love you too Violet, see you tomorrow baby." She said

I drove off smiling and went home had a long bubble bath, put on one of my beautiful dresses that I bought, I wrote a note and placed it at my bedside before brushing my hair and poured out the pills in a bowl with a glass of wine. I lied down in my bed and took them one by one in my mouth and drank it down with wine. I was half way through until I drifted and felt foam at my mouth. This was it, I was going.......

Goodbye.

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