Love

Next week

I am sitting and  practicing with my Big Bang friends for our upcoming concert like a today I am really tired we all are but I am missing my Bf I think he will join me tomorrow and I want that to day to come fast ..... I am missing jiyong really badly but I did all my interview for my admission they will call me next week I wanna go to him now I am here alone in his house it's really lonely with out him here I got all my packing all stuffs for going tomorrow to stay with him there ' is he missing me like I am missing him ..... ohh gosh I should call him I was dialled his no and he picked the call quickly hey baby how you doing .... not so good .... are you sick !..... no ' I am missing you a lot and I don't like being here only me not you with me ..... oh my baby I missing you so much I am still in rehearsing but I wanna hear your voice it's make me feel much better .... ohh jiyong I am gonna be there tomorrow with you so little more separation then we will be together .... I know but I love you to much ..... me to jiyong ' so you are eating well .... yes 'and you .... you know how eater I am .... I know but I want your touch it's presence your face and you specially just can't help it ..... ohh you are being so emotional for not having me with you there I am coming tomorrow so wait for me tomorrow .... of course everyday I can do this for you wait for you .... ohh how cute you are now even more then me .... actually in our relationship you are cute and I am handsome get it ..... are you angry ? ..... no baby I don't like cute word on me only except you .... ok then I will not call you that ever promise .... hey you don't need to apologise I love you I was saying you can use that words if you want I will not mind you .... you are nice jiyong I was scared I thought you are not happy with me .... i am always happy with you .... I am gonna sleep I am tired jiyong baby .... ok get some rest I know you were whole day out and good night baby ....goodnight .... ohh bye tc .... you to love you my love .... love you to baby ..... I fell asleep after ending the call I was so tired with all the interviews and getting there is very hard it's very far from here how am I gonna survive I am tired likes this go that far how am I gonna manage all my things I think I will tell jiyong about moving there I can't do this that's tiring my feet are swelled ohh I need you jiyong really ..... hmm I felt weird like he is calling me maybe I am falling in love it's like crazy it's driving me crazy one day with out him ohh gosh how am I gonna survive without him .... jiyong are you tired .... no I am fine youngbae it's just I was thinking about my Bf ..... so you do have a Bf .... yes but don't tell others yet .... ok sure man I will not tell them but I am happy for you .... thanks youngbae he will be here tomorrow .... ohh that's great I am excited who he is ?.... ok I think you know him ..... when I see him.... actually it's been a while !.... ohh it's fine for me  we are good ..... I know you are the trusty one so I thought should tell you about things going in my life and he is very charming and nice person I hope you will like him ....I know he will be nice friend like you  so just concentrate on rehearsal not about him ..... ok ok ................ it's next day I am excited I am in a flight waiting for flight to take off  and then I can be with my bf I am missing his smile his love for me I looked over and saw my message from jiyong the hotel name and room no he booked for me I am happy he already done all the stuffs I should go take a shower and relaxed some ..... jiyong come on man we are late for party it's surprise from our friends should n't you think less for them .... I know but he is coming jiyong I have to be with him ..... I know message him about your booking and tell him you will be late get some rest .... ok ok I messaged Him queries about booking but did n't tell him I am gonna be late ..... I entered in a hotel it was huge like palaces it's more then that I asked there manager I had a room booked here so can you check for me ..... yes sir .... I was hoping it's all fine with booking .... yes sir you have a booking for today here is your card of your room and sir do you have more begs he will carried  your luggage .... ohh thanks .... he will show you your room to .... thanks I was following where he is going I heard him sir this your room do you have any card yea here .... ok I will help you check in sir ...sure thanks ' after I enter in my room he takes his leave then I locked my room and then I took a shower then after that I fell asleep for an hour but I did n't see a jiyong yet I already messaged 2 hours before coming here but he did n't come to see me sometimes he forget about me easily I wanted to see him because I am here for him but still is not here yet it was almost 10 at night but I am still waiting for him but he did n't even messaged me ..... ohh gosh tae it's all your fault I am late to see him he is going upset about that .... how can you be sure !..... I know any Bf will it's not to be late to see your Bf it's upsetting I don't know how will he react .... jiyong we are here go see your Bf and hide your face with mask first .... ok thanks I ran to see him in his room I ringed his room bell and then I saw him he can't see I am here I am sorry I am late I was trying to tell him but he stops me and asked me to enter in first actually ..... hmm you were saying something .... I am sorry taeyang took me there my friends through a party for us all of our member but I was trying to say no to him but they ignore my question and force me go with them..... it's fine jiyong I am tired I wanna sleep and you must be so go get some rest ..... hmm are you not angry .... no I am not ' I was but he has many person in his life and more important  then because they met him first not me ..... ok then I will sleep here I can't go in my room I am tired ,..., ok sleep here I was upset but I don't wanna harsh on him because he was doing his work here it's not make him upset him ..... I can feel he is very pissed but He did n't want me to feel bad after he fell asleep I get close to him and I feel relaxed to get close to him ....... after I awake at morning I looked at him he was sleeping cuddling to my back side why he is very nice but i mood breaker he never upset with my attitude but I get upset easily I think it's just I am 17 I get upset easily maybe maybe I am talking excuses ..... i looked him he was all dressed up and ready to go some where ' are going somewhere ..... no I just fresh n up .... ohh I think I should take a bath to .... yes you need really badly.....I know and I am going to clean my self after all fresh n up I changed into something comfy from borrow to my Bf .... I ordered a breakfast for you ...... thanks I am starving I ate all breakfast then get ready to go in my room back let's go in my room .... I am fine here ....are you sure you will be bored here .... no I am good you can go jiyong .... ok see then I came back to my room but I want him to come here and spend a time with me but he is so moody what should I do not to make him more angry he is very ..... I thought I should stay with him not here alone I was going in his room but I saw his band mate entered in his room but I thought I should meet him to jiyong can introduce to him I never met them as a jiyong Bf I was going in but I heard jiyong was upset with my attitude and he is not happy with me I ran to my room and I cried there for an hour but he is not coming here he is upset with my attitude how am I gonna work on my attitude it's my nature .... oh gosh you don't need to feel bad he will be fine I know so go there ask him for outing here so get some fun .... I think you are right I gotta go then .... go on .... I get in his room I saw him he was watching tv drama hey what are you doing ! ..... I am watching tv jiyong ..... yea I can see that but I want your attention .... ohh ,... do you wanna go out and we can had some fun day here .... actually I don't want to !..... ok .....I had a headache so you can go with your !.... did you said anything .... hmm I said you can have a fun with your friend so go .... I don't like your attitude the way you are behaving .....ok then send me off I wanna go to my home ..... ok go on I will book your ticket and stay with your parents stay with them You  don't wanna be with me anymore I hate your attitude you are so childish ..... yes I am .... that's it I called my manager book his ticket for back to korea and I got out of that room it was suffocating me and I need a fresh air ..... when he is gone I packed my all stuffs and his gifts are not taking with me whatever he buy for me I know I was childish but I was not feeling good because he lived wit his friends that day I was coming to see him and bitching about my attitude he knows I had some tantrum but he always know how I am but still he is upset about that it's wrong to me that why I am walking out on this relationship bye jiyong ..... when I get back with his ticket I saw there was no one and not his luggage I think he is gone ohh gosh jiyong it's your fault I always know how sometime he behaves like that but why I was so upset with him I know him why I did to him it's my fault to react like that I am sorry baby .