My Magnificent Skater (Yuri Plisetsky x Otabek Altin)

He Needs To Know

Yuri still won't tell me his problem with me. Since the whole argument, Yuuri won't let us be alone. He constantly has to be in the room with us. It's irritating. I want to be able to talk about it, but because Yuuri has to be a talk block, I can't.

So, I've developed a plan.

I'll just talk to Yuri when Yuuri is asleep. Yuri tends to stay up anyways, and Yuuri is a heavy sleeper, so it's a simple yet genius plan.

So I wait till Yuuri falls asleep so I can actually talk to Yuri. It actually didn't take long. I have no idea what the cooks do to hospital food, but it knocked him straight out. And then my opening was all ready.

"Yuri?" I ask from my chair.

He turns to me. "Yes?"

"I love you," I say softly. "You know that right?"

Yuri turns bright red. "Yeah, you say it all the time."

"Then I need to let you know that what you're doing is hurting me immensely."

He stays silent.

"I'm willing to tell you things about what I think and feel because I love you. So why can't you do the same for me?" I say looking away.

It's quiet, meaning that he's thinking. I hope he can understand where I am coming from. It hurts to not hold hands with him, but it hurts more when he won't hold it for a reason.

"Otabek... There are things you wouldn't understand... Things only I can feel... And I think if I told you what I think and feel, it would break our relationship further... Maybe to the point of us not wanting to even be friends."

I'm actually shocked. He thinks that I would never want anything to do with him. "That will never happen. Whatever it is, I could never get angry over it."

"I get that Otabek. But you accepting my problem isn't what I'm afraid of. I'm afraid that my problem will make me hate you..." He looks away.

"You are kidding, right..?" I ask him.

"No, I'm not," he says with a shake of his head.

"Is there any way I can fix this? I'm seriously terrified right now..." I could feel my body shake.

Yuri can see this, his eyes are terrified too. "You're crying..."

I feel my cheek and indeed, I'm crying. "Yeah, I am. Cause you hate me..."

"I don't hate you..." He says quickly.

"Then what do you think of me? Do I disgust you? Do I scare you?"

"Yes!" he yells.

That's all I needed to hear. I stood up to leave.

"Otabek, please..."

"Please what? Don't leave? We all know that it would be better if I'm just out of the picture. You obviously don't love me anymore." I say crossly

"I do love you!" He lets out.

"So you love me, and think I'm disgusting?"

"It's not exactly you I'm disgusted with..." He looks at his hands.

"You aren't making any sense."

"I know... But please don't leave. I'm trying so hard..."

Looking at him this way is too painful. "I have to leave."

But before I could take another step away, I felt someone grab my hand.

"Don't leave him," says Yuuri. Great, now two people to argue with.

"Nobody is telling me anything! I feel awful and I can't be here anymore."

"You look like someone Otabek..." I hear Yuri whisper.

"What?"

"You look like a man who has hurt me... And I do love you, I really do! It just hurts to see two faces when I talk to you..."

I stopped. "That's it..?"

Both him and Yuuri nod.

I take a deep breath. "What can I do to help. I'll do whatever it takes to make this man leave your thoughts."

Yuri smiles, and it feels so genuine this time. It finally got me, and I didn't feel upset anymore.

"Just help me see you... That's all I want Beka."

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HOLA READERS. Okay, so far, I'm getting really into writing this again which is super good! Another thing, I'M SO READY FOR SUMMER.

I also have a warning for you all. It's a good one. I'm in the middle of some other juicy fan fics, so once this is finished I'll publish those! Thats it! 

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