I woke up cuddled all snug in Kakashi's bed with him. His arm was wrapped around me holding me tight, the way Kinsy does when we sleep in the same bed. After I realised I had compared him to Kinsy I chuckled abit and the sound woke him up, he immediately released me and apologized. "Sorry Amber, I just figured you wouldn't mind."
I smiled at him, "I don't mind!" I assured him, then I got up and went to my room to change and unpack. After everything looked okish, I grabbed my guitar yelled to Kakashi I'd find him later, and went to find a good place to play. I didn't want to play in the woods and disturb the animals so, I settled on the top of a medium sized building with a flat top and little place that would be great to sit and play.
I strummed out a few notes correcting some parts, and then started to sing along, "You feel like a candel in hurricane..." and then I lost myself playing and the pain that pounded up when ever I did anything that me and Sangekiko used to do together. I played quite a few songs singing along to a couple of them. Then I heard someone applauding and scolded myself for not paying attention to my surroundings again. I looked over and saw blonde hair appearing up the steps on the side of the building, followed by a smiling face. The pain shrunk a bit, and I grinned at him, but then remembered myself and put a scowl on my face.
"That was amazing! Who would've thought you had such a great voice! and when'd you learn to play guitar!?" The fourth exclaimed watching me with awe.
I glared at him "Weren't you ever taught not to eavesdrop?" I asked then answered his questions with a sigh, "Didn't I tell you my village was big on music? It was sort of something you grew up watching people do so you teach yourself, like walking and talking. I've been playing even before I could form coherent sentences."
He looked at me with a weird look in his eye, his aura was to swirly to pick out what he was feeling so I waited for him to say something. "Are you sure you're only six?" He asked, just like Kakashi did.
I chuckled at that and let every one of my walls down, even the one hiding the sadness and pain I still felt about Sangekiko. "You're not the first person to say that to me. Yeah, I know I don't act like a 'normal' six year. I'm happy though, if I did I'd be stumbling around unsure on my feet still, and slurring so many words." I explained, smiling and I set my guitar to the side and closed my book.
He grinned at me too, and walked over, plopping down beside me, leaning back and looking up at the clear, blue, puffy clouded sky. "You're right, you wouldn't be near as much fun if you weren't so.. intelligent. But I think it'd be better if you were a normal six year old, then you wouldn't have had to go through so much to be this intelligent about the world. I've never seen a true spark of little kid innocence in your eyes." He told me a note of sadness slipping in his voice with a little bit of pity attached to it.
I frowned at that, and tossed it around in my head for a bit before slowly replying, "I had some books at my house that described a family with three young kids, in almost every chapter there was mention of their innocence or how they had yet to find the charms of boys appealing. They had never had to fight, for anything, the love of a parent was just a given, and they all... it was just something I had always wished was my life, I didn't describe it well but it was a great book." I said still frowning, and not looking at the fourth, even though I could feel his eyes boring holes into me.
"Amber, I'm sorry. It does happen you know?" he said but after seeing my look of slight confusion he continued on with, "I mean, playful, carefree childhood, you've just been dealt a bad hand in life, you've had a rough start, but don't worry! I'll be here for you, I'll help you overcome whatever other issues life throws at you." He said, the tone of his voice conveying to me how serious he was. "About the charms of boys though.. I mean I know you had to grow up faster in Swansea, but.. I mean.. well.." He stumbled over words and kind of blushed.
I laughed at him, "Nope, I'm still not interested in anything like that.. Geez, I'm only six." I rolled my eye's.
He looked indignant and attempted to defend himself. "Well you never know! I mean, you could most likely hold your own in a fight against me, actually I wouldn't be surprised if you won. Who's to say that you don't get those, um, emotions, until later on! For all I know you could have a huge crush on Kakashi right now!" He said triumph ringing in his voice.
"No, Kakashi's Kakashi. That'd be weird to have a crush on him." I looked at the fourth like he was insane, and the fourth winked at me and dissapeared. So much for saying see you later.
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Weeks and Months flew by, slowly the snow and chill disappeared from the air, and with it gone, the excruciating pain of Sangekiko lessened, I still missed her and I knew I'd never forget her but my body was realizing I wouldn't see her again for quite a few more decades. The pain would still intensify at certain points but it hardly ever hit the mark of pain that used to be.
I went out and bought some flower seeds from the Uchiha clan, the old auntie that ran the little corner store threw in some extra ones for free and winked at me, telling me not to tell anyone else. I thanked her and ran out, heading straight for my clearing.
I worked hard planting rows of flowers. I knew in a month or so I'd be seeing some vivid colors in the green clearing. Kakashi never came out here anymore, I think he thinks that I use this place as my way to get away from everyone. If that's what it is then he's right but I don't mind being around him.
I siphoned over some water from the lake and got the soil damp. Then with my work being done, I stretched and went home, to plant the little seeds of ivy that would hopefully start climbing soon. I wanted that house to be covered with ivy, roses, and purple and white clematises. I smiled as I imagined how pretty it would be.
On my way to find Kakashi I got sidetracked by the fourth, he was walking down the street with Ms. Uzumaki. Their arms were linked together and he was smiling and she was laughing up at him. The love was completely evident on their faces and I started wondering how long it had been going on. She was visiting from highland but I was suspecting she wouldn't be going back there anytime soon.
