I Ain't Your Mama [[PJM]] ✔️

Admit It

Jimin

Loved me.

She loved me.

But did I love her?

"I heard that if you sigh too much you become shorter," Jungkook said "You don't want to be sighing too much considering your height"

"Fuck you!" I snapped at him "I'm the perfect height. Lanky bastard"

"What's making you sigh so much?" Taehyung asked "Girl problems?"

"No" I mumbled.

"Ah, I see. It's wife problems" Yoongi smirked at me "What is wrong now?"

"It's nothing" I sighed.

"Must be something," Jin said "Or you wouldn't be sighing so much"

I held in another sigh "She...she just said something to me and it's been bugging me"

"Doesn't want to suck your dick?" Namjoon asked and I hit him "If you don't want us to guess just tell us"

"Hana...she told me she loved me"

"About time," Jungkook said.

"You knew?" I asked and everyone nodded at me "You all knew?"

"Well yeah," Yoongi said "It's obvious"

I tutted "And you didn't think to tell me. Thanks, guys. Great friends"

"It wasn't our place to say...so, did you say it back?" Jungkook asked.

"No. Cause I don't"

"Ouch," Yoongi said "Maybe you really are a dummy"

"I'm in love with Eujin," I said "She is the one I-"

"No, I don't think that is it," Jin said "You aren't in love with her. Not anymore,"

"I am"

"Who do you think about when you first wake up?" Namjoon asked and before I could answer he carried on "Who do you want to go home to every night? Who do you want to make happy oh and my favourite, who do you tidy for?"

"That doesn't mean I love Hana," I said folding my arms "It's just that I'm always around her and I promised her that I would make her happy and... it does mean love, guys"

They just smirked at me.

"Dummy," Yoongi said "If you didn't love her, why do you keep checking your phone to see if she messaged you? Then get angry when she doesn't reply"

"You also got really pissed off when someone bad-mouthed her in the press and called her 'a below average girl'. You almost broke the TV turning it off" Namjoon said "You aren't allowed to take my title of the most clumsy guy"

I folded my arms and frowned "Is that really love?"

"Only you can tell us that," Jin said "When you think of Eujin what pops into your head?"

"The nasty bitch who left me at the altar but then I think about the good times we had," I said.

"Which were?"

I hesitated "The nice holidays and...the sex"

"And Hana?"

"Talking about what to have for dinner or what film to watch," I said, shaking my head, "And how I'd beat her at any game. How pretty she looks when she smiles and the puffy eyes and cheeks in the morning, making her look like a hamster. Oh, and how innocent she is. I told her that I-"

"And there we have it" Yoongi showed me a rare gummy smile "You couldn't stop smiling when you spoke about her"

"Shit," I said leaning back in my chair. My heart skipped slightly "But how is that love? I might just admire how different she is"

"Just admit it. You don't love Eujin anymore. Anyway, we all know Hana is the better sister. She doesn't care that you're an idol and she gets mad at you when you kick your shoes across the apartment"

My chest was hurting and I swallowed the lump in my throat. Were the guys right?

Did I love her?

I wasn't sure.

After everything I had gone through with Eujin, did I really love Hana?

I thought about Eujin but her face morphed into something else. Something worth keeping at my side.

Hana.

I suddenly jumped to my feet making everyone jump.

"I have to go" I grabbed my jacket and ran for the door "Tell PD-nim I'll be early next week. I have something important to do and well, it's better than practice, that's for sure,"

I was lucky I didn't get pulled over for speeding and I raced to the top of the building, crashing through the front door to my, no, our apartment.

"Hana!" I called out and I ran upstairs in search of her "Hana!"

The door opened to her room and she stood there in her duck pyjamas, with a tub of ice cream in her hand. Her eyes were bloodshot like she had been crying for hours and she stared at me. I found myself smiling when I saw a bit of chocolate ice cream on the corner of her mouth.

I walked forward and put her face in my hands. Before the shocked girl could say anything...I kissed her.

I wasn't sure how I was going to tell her that I loved her back, but I sure wasn't going to give up. After a while, she pushed me away with red cheeks.

"Have you been drinking?" She asked.

I laughed "No, but the day isn't over yet"

"Then why did you kiss me?" Hana asked, "You told me to leave you alone this morning and-"

"I was wrong" I smiled "Really wrong"

"Are you sure you haven't taken anything? I will support you either way"

I laughed again and hugged her "No. I'm not on drugs either. I promise you"

"Then what is wrong with you?"

"Hana," I said holding her at arm's length "What did you tell me last night"

Hana looked away "I'm not saying it again. You told me not to"

"Tell me"

She sighed "Not that it matters but I said I love you"

"Say it again"

"Are you sure you aren't on drugs?"

"Say it again. Tell me that you love me"

Hana groaned "I love you! I love you Park fucking Jimin"

"I love you too," I said and her eyes went wide.

"You-"

"Hana. I. Love. You"

A/N: posted on my lunch break.

Expect more.

#notsorryforthecheese. 🧀