F*cking Alphas

12. Chapter

After that little incident, Jongdae tried to avoid Minseok the best he could. He needed to collect himself again and to order his chaotic feelings. He needed to find out, what was happening to him and between him and Minseok. He asked himself, why he hadn't punched the alpha for behaving this asshole-like towards him again. Why he hadn't been able to do anything in that risky situation and why he had grown so weak. And the most important thing that bothered him, why had Minseok been able to smell his real scent and had triggered his omega hormones, when he had already doubled up his heat suppressant dose and had been applying more perfume?

But why did it, on the other hand, feel like that he didn't really seem to mind it anymore? Like he would actually look forward for the alpha to do such things? Like he would be slowly stopping to hate alphas...

It was so darn irritating for Jongdae...

All those feelings at one time were too much for him and he needed some time for himself to figure out, what he really felt.

He had even avoided Baekhyun and Kyungsoo and didn't talk to them, when they had called him or had tried to visit him in his apartment.

He needed to find it out and to deal with this on his own. Without anybody else's help.

And that's how he found himself a week later, on a Wednesday morning, in front of his door. Ready to face Minseok again and to apologize for his repellent behaviour the last days, but that he had really needed this time to order his feelings.

But as soon as he opened the door, all his thoughts and sentences vanished as he was met with a familiar figure.

Minseok.

Looking really tired and exhausted, like he wouldn't have slept for days. If the dark bags under his eyes were anything to go by. But that wasn't the only thing that looked unhealthy about the boy. Also his skin looked kind of pale and his eyes were empty, the bright shimmer they normally had seemingly eradicated.

had he done this to him? Had he made Minseok look that miserable?

But before he could open his mouth, he felt strong arms envelope him and he found himself being tightly pressed against the taller's chest.

"I'm so fucking sorry, Jongdae", Minseok blurted out, which caught Jongdae off-guard, who made a squeak-similar noise, which resulted in Minseok holding him even closer. "I am sorry for my crappy behaviour towards you last week. That wasn't right and you didn't deserve that. I should have controlled myself and not have pestered you. I was just so fucking entranced by you and your scent that...that I almost wasn't able to control myself. But that is no apology for that and I should have controlled myself. I even forgot to thank you for saving my ass back then from this sasaeng. I am really sorry. I shouldn't have done that. Please, please Jongdae, forgive me", the boy pleaded in a wavering voice.

When Jongdae heard that, heard his name, he shivered and held his breath. Listening to the alpha's rapid heartbeat as he let the warm and secure alpha aura envelope him as he tried to relax his body. He then took Minseok's wrists from his back and removed them slowly, before he made the taller look at him.

That's when he suddenly felt it, thought it. Minseok... shouldn't be apologizing. Neither of them should, because that situation had been one, nobody of them could have controlled in those circumstances. Although he had to admit that it felt good that Minseok was apologizing to him. Finally seeming to understand that his behaviour was wrong and that it just hurt him and people around him. It made Jongdae smile victoriously on the inside.

But as he opened his mouth to tell that Minseok, Minseok had already cut him off, before could even utter a word. "Do not say that I am just partiallly guilty, because I am not. I made a mistake and I want to apologize for it... I do not often apologize, when I make mistakes. But you are important to me, even though I know that you maybe still hate me, and that I am too stupid to show it. But still...so please, just say if you accept my apology or not", the taller muttered and Jongdae closed his mouth as a pink blush creeped upon his face, while he listened to the alpha's words.