F*cking Alphas

13. Chapter

Still puzzled and deep absorbed in his thoughts, Jongdae returned home and tried to repeat his lectures for university. But eventually gave up after an hour, because he couldn't concentrate on it anyway.

He groaned in despair as he made himself tea and took his iPad. Trying to distract himself in another way from his thoughts.

But no matter what he tried, his thoughts always turned back to Minseok.

Minseok's voice, eyes, face, smile, laugh, body, just Minseok's everything and Jongdae felt his heartbeat speeding up at every upcoming thought about the boy. He felt a warm and electrifying sensation flashing through his whole body, which had his source in the bottom of his heart. Making his veins feel like they were on fire as his mind got clouded. Making him trembling slightly as every muscle in his body twitched. Almost like he carved for Minseok, for his presence, for his warmth.

For Minseok's everything.

That made Jongdae blush as very inappropriate thoughts filled his mind. Picturing Minseok's naked glory in front of him as the boy caged him. His eyes shining icy blue with unbelievable lust in them as the alpha slowly came nearer and nearer...

"NO!", Jongdae yelled as he slapped his cheeks, shaking his head violently to get a clear mind again.

Okay, he might have been in love with Minseok, but that didn't allow him to....think or imagine such things. Did it?

The thoughts came back to his mind again and he flushed in a deep shade of red as he let out a whiny groan.

Now he really was officially fucked, Jongdae thought as he stood up to make himself another tea.

Why did he even let Minseok into his heart? How did this even happen?

Minseok was like every other alpha he had met and despised so much. He was arrogant, cheeky, had that smug smile that drove him secretly crazy, was an asshole and only thought about sex. So how could he even had developed feelings for that alpha?

"Because he is different and you know that", a voice in his head told him. "And because you kind of like that sassy attitude. Because it turns you on", the voice continued and Jongdae almost chocked on his breath as he heard that. "No", he mumbled, "That's not true." "It is and deep down you know that. You can maybe try and suppress your nature. But not forever and you know that", the voice said and Jongdae just shook his head. Pushing the still talking voice to the back of his head as he walked over to the living room with his brewing tea.

But suddenly he felt a sharp pain in his foot and yelped loudly. "Bloody hell! What the fuck is that?", he cursed, rubbing his right bare foot as he tried to find whatever had just hurt him like that.

His eyes then spotted a small four-squared object on the ground, which he took and inspected.

"What the heck is a memory card doing on my floor?", he whispered as he went over to the couch, sat down cross-legged and placed his tea, which luckily hadn't been spilled, on the glass table.

He then turned the TV on and took his Laptop to stick the card in.

But as soon as he did it, a sickening feeling built in his stomach and his inner omega howled loudly. As if warning him not to do it. Screaming that he would get hurt and terribly regret it, when he would open the files in front of him. Yet, he ignored the warnings and opened one of the files, only to feel like throwing up, when he saw Minseok on it.

Naked.

In the shower.

His whole body twitched as the disgusting feeling in his gut grew, when he remembered last week's events. It was the card that he had wanted to give to Minseok, but apparently let it fall onto the floor, when he had fled into his flat.