[JackBarakat] You're The One [Spin-Off | I'm The Only One]

Seven.

"You slept with him?" His voice doesn't break. Instead, it's calm. The complete opposite of what I thought it would be.

Maybe I wanted him to be mad.

Maybe I wanted him to make a big deal out of it.

"I'm not surprised." He shrugs his shoulders and I swear his face is neutral. I search his face for something, anything. "Am I supposed to be surprised?"

I feel my eyes fill with water. And I don't know why. "I, I don't know." Shakily, I run my hand through my hair. "Do you hate me?"

Alex sighs heavily, shaking his head. "I don't hate you."

I hate me.

I slept with his best friend.

I slept with my best friend.

I slept with a taken man.

"I hate me." I whisper. I'm not sure why I'm opening up to him, what made me call him to ask him to come over. I needed someone and I needed the truth. "I hate me so much."

He bites down on his lower lip, something he always did when I would cry. "I don't think you should hate yourself. I think you should hate Jack."

A tear slides down my cheek.

I've been trying to hate Jack for two weeks now. And all it's gotten me is nothing. I get nothing.

"Fuck, Brae, I hate Jack. I hate that he did this to you." Alex never showed his emotions when we were together. I always thought it was because I had enough for the two of us. "You don't deserve this."

Shrugging my shoulders, I swallow the lump in my throat. "I don't want you to hate Jack. I don't want anyone to hate Jack. That's not why I called you."

"Why did you call me, B?" He stands up. "What do I have to do to get you to see that this break up ruined me?"

I open my mouth to say something, anything, but I close it when no words come out. He never acted like he cared. He never acted like I mattered.

"I had no one else, Alex." I tell him the truth, something both of us deserve. "You know Jack the best. You know me the best. Sometimes I miss the closeness we had. But, Alex, we're not meant to be and you know it."

He nods his head, possibly in understanding. "I'm not looking to get back together with you. I know we're done. I just don't get why you call me out of all our friends?"

"I don't know." I shrug my shoulders and run a hand through my hair. "I don't know. You're Jack's best friend. I did it for selfish reasons."

"You know, I'm okay with that. It's about time you do something selfish."

Smiling, I let out a soft laugh. "Why didn't he tell me he had a girlfriend?"

Alex runs his hands through his hair. "I think he loves you."