Bad turns into good

Chaptes four

I woke up and it was around 7pm.. I had blacked out, but yet nobody had cared to even txt or call me. Nobody cared about wither I was live or dead. I got up and my arm was covered in blood..

"Why do I do this?" I thought, but didn't know the answer to..

I got up and walked to the corner store and got some gum, and a tea.. Tea is the only thing I can really put in my body, other than that I will throw it up.. I walked home, in the dark.. Still nobody cares..

When I reach home I just take some pills, more than usual, and go to bed.

*two days later*

I'm stuffed into a corner crying my eyes out.. All I can remember is my dad's huge hands hitting me in the head. He's yelling something but I can't quiet make it out.. I woke up in my bed, my eyes are blood shot and my one eye is swollen and turning purple.. I decided not to go to school, and just stay at the park by the water.

As I'm getting dressed I can see all of my bruises.. They are all down my legs and my arms.. Some on my stomach.. I hurry and put my black skinnies and a red long sleeved shirt, with my black and gray striped beanie and my black vans.

*at the park by the water*

Sitting there, thinking and crying.. My eyes are hurting so bad but I continue to cry. I take out my cat and just play., and continue to play an play until I can't anymore.. I put my headphones in and just close my eyes and let his words take me away.

So give me all your poison

And give me all your pills

And give me all your hopeless hearts

And make me ill

You're running after something

That you'll never kill

If this is what you want

Then fire at will

I start to sing along.. Whispering his beautiful lyrics.

I felt a hand on my shoulder, causing my to jump. I turn to see who had just interrupted me.....