• Here Comes A Thought •

• Final Goodbyes •

No
This can't be happening
They're burying you underground
Don't they know you can't breathe down there?
What if you scream? No one will hear a sound!
Tears are rushing down my face
You can't be replaced
Why are mom and dad yelling at each other like the goal is to win the race?
The goal is to get you out of that place!
I wasn't there for you before, but I'm here for you now
The walls are closing in and air is something that my throat just won't allow

It's all over
Everything's gone
With the world as awful as it is, you were the only thing I could rely on
The only thing to cling to
And you've now decided that your life is finally through?
What about the rest of it?
Where's the rest of your life?
It's now six feet under
You should've never picked up that knife
And my heart is filled with spite
I hate what you did
I'll never forgive you
Our friendship died the second you took your own life too

You're all that's on my mind
I miss you dearly
All that stuff I said before...I didn't mean it, truly
You were everything to me and I wish I've seen it sooner
Maybe the darkness in your head would've left you as a loner

It's over, isn't it?
The laughs and the smiles
Please tell me you didn't leave me
I'm crying up the Nile
I guess...I won't see you in a while
How dark was your mind?
How long have you planned?
How long did you play with the fragile thing we call life in your hands?
I want to hold you and tell you that everything will be okay
But now you're gone
Even if you were here, I wouldn't know what to say
I'm sorry? Forgive me?
For what? Being human?
I'm sorry, but you can't expect me to see through your pain when none of it was proven!
But I knew...
Somewhere in my head
You were crying yourself to sleep
While I was resting in bed

Damn it, I'm sorry
I got mad again
It's been kind of hard around here
Mom is shaking in her room and she's trembling with fear
Dad's drinking beer and it's almost been a year
Why do I still feel empty?
Oh wait, I feel a tear
Maybe if I say goodbye, I'll forget the pain and agony
But letting you float away is nowhere near close to being happy
Bags under my eyes
Cries in my head
Crumpled up letters similar to this scattered on my bed
Tell me...dear friend
If I got to you sooner, would this help you? What I said?