Strawberries & Cigarettes. Camila/You

Chapter 12

Your Pov

We were almost teaching towards the end of the night several hours after I showed Camila the test results and I will not lie

I had my doubts while the tests were rolling in.

I don't test well especially when I was in school but I made the grade, But this has got to be the most nerve wrecking test I've ever taken in my life and for once I'm sort of satisfied with the results

My son Santiago little Santi, And there's so much I've missed in so little time.

These nights have been flying by like clockwork and for once I'm not full on drinking but I'm still smoking like a damn chimney

Smoking pretty much helps me deal with people, Crazy people especially, Even though it kind of shortens my life span honestly don't care but now that I know I'm a mother I have to care about my respiratory health even though I'm still smoking I'm waiting for someone to give me a better fucking alternative

So I can see Santiago grow up.

"Y/n!" I heard Alex call out to me moving through seas of people and off towards the bar

"Something wrong little brother?" I ask restocking some bottles as he sits down in front of me looking around before leaning over

"Is the little guy..You know" he says only loud enough for me to hear him as I nod

"And your an Uncle" I say as my brother just grins proudly grabbing my hand over the counter and squeezing it

"Oh sis that's great news!" Alex exclaims happily a bright smile beaming as I nod not saying a word

"You don't look happy about this, What's wrong Y/n?" He asks as I sigh deeply

He knows why I had doubts back then, but there is something else he also doesn't know about that not even I can

Or even want to say out loud.

"It's nothing, Go help clean up backstage hm?" I say placing the bottles in their proper places organizing them even though I am an official believer in organized chaos nonetheless

Or at least when it came to the bedroom I refused to clean

The night began to wind down and it end messier tonight than it did in the past two except there are more broken bottles on the floor than I anticipated and we had to kick less people out

Which is a first.

"Y/n you've been quiet all night, What's up with you?" Charlie asked as we wiped the tables down while I continued to clean in pure silence nonetheless before I felt something snap at my arm

"Ouch Charlie what in the hell?!" I say taking my towel and hit him right back

"I'm trying to get you to speak you've been playing mute all night" he states as I close my eyes and sigh deeply

"It's just been a long day, After you know finding out your a parent and all" I say nonchalantly before crossing my arms causing Charlie to look at me in a bit of sympathy

"You asked for the test"

"You know why I asked for it" I say throwing the towel down looking up at him

"He almost did it Y/n-"

"Almost seems like he already did Charlie" I say walking up to him

"And if I didn't know any better I'd say she would've wanted to" I say venom piercing in my voice before I noticed Charlie shoved me back

"She was fucking drunk and you know that"

"But She was sober enough at the fucking party to know what was going on" I say my voice raising as the tension grew

It just had to be on and at my fucking birthday party..

The hardest step I ever took was to blindly trust her after I met her...