PAN (#WattPride)

III

"When did you first discover that you were Pan?"

'...can we finish the bagel first? I'm actually really hungry.'

"But..."

'Agh! Stop it! No grown person should pout like that, I swear to God, what are you, five?'

"Please?"

'Ah, fine. Fine! ...what was the question?'

"...you frustrate me sometimes. Anyway. When did you decide to identify as Pansexual?"

'Oh. I guess when I came across it on the Internet. Like, I'd heard of lesbian, gay, bi and trans, but nothing else. But then 'Licia came out to me as bi-gender, as I just kinda flopped at being supportive cause I was so fascinated with how it-worked? There's no good way to put it, really, but after that I started researching and reading a lot more on it, and then I read the definition of pan and I was like 'okay, this sounds kinda like me' but then I read some more and this person had a blog, you know, the one you caught me reading on our second date? Yeah, that one, and the blog was all about how sexuality and gender are fluid and everyone should find their own way to describe how they are sexually and romantically attracted to people and I was like 'oh my god I don't even have to fit into any explicit category!' And I decided that the way I feel about people can be described as being Pansexual, so I went for that. And then I went to the meet-up and met you. And now we live together. And we're about to adopt a cat, so I did something right.'

"Hey! We haven't decided on the cat yet!"

'You'll cave eventually, you're a sucker for a kitten that won't think twice about your gender identity or expression.'

"I-yeah, I can't deny that. But, um. Thanks for talking about it, with me. The sexuality stuff."

'Of course. You've-given me time and space-it's only fair I-that I share the same things you've been sharing with since the start, that we're on equal playing field.'

"Hey now. We've always been equal, it's just nice now, to get to know you more and understand you."

'See that! That's what's so lovely about you! You want to know me because you love me, and I can see that in everything you do.
...I love it.'

"'Excuse me, would you and your-partner want to order something else or are you settled with your bagel?"'

"..."

'...'

"She'll have a tea, no milk or sugar."

'And they'll have a hot chocolate, extra marsh-mellows please.'

"'O-okay. Coming right up!"'

"We're getting better at this, aren't we?"

'I got it?'

"You did."

'Hah, I knew you wanted your sugar fix.'

"Well, I knew you wanted your-tea fix. So whatever."

'...where's the bagel?'

"I might've eaten it while you were talking and declaring your undying love-"

'You laugh, but it's true!'

"..eat your bagel, you kitchen appliance."