Y/N's POV
I've been avoiding Jonah for a few weeks now, since our argument.
Surprisingly enough, he's been acting even more strange this past days. His stupid friends disappeared completely, he's always home and never partying, but it got to the point where he doesn't leave his room.
Corbyn even told me he can hear soft cries coming from his best friend's room. And although I'm trying to get over him..... I can't.
All this is getting me worried.
I know I shouldn't care. But I do. A lot. He made me very happy a one point and part of me refuses to accept that the guy I fell in love with is gone.
What I told him was a bit too much. I swear I saw a bit of hurt in his eyes and now I'm afraid I caused him to really get hurt after all I did tell him when we broke up we could still be friends. But now it really seems like he's dead to me.
"I don't know what's going on with him honestly!" Zach says sitting on the couch with his head on his hands.
"Can you go talk to him? Please Y/N. I don't know what happened when you two fought but this needs to stop. We have work to do and he doesn't give a shit about it." Jack holds on to my arms and I shake my head.
"I'm sorry guys. I really am but I don't think he will listen to me. We fought last time because he couldn't understand my point. I yelled at him." I tell them. They deserve the truth.
"What did you do?" Daniel asks.
"We both started shouting and he told me I was always around other guys when we were dating and compared it to him bringing hoes home everynight. I tried knocking some sense into him and he ignored me. So I told him I wasn't going to keep going back to him and that he was dead to me. He left after that."
I tell the guys while playing with my fingers and looking down most of the time. I'm really uncomfortable because I know what I did was wrong.
"Y/N...." Daniel starts speaking almost is disappointed.
"I know I know. But I was angry at him and he was not taking me seriously." I pout.
"No! That's it! He was jealous of your friends, he got defensive and let his insecurities take over. When you told him you were done for good, he suddently got upset." Corbyn acts like he just solved a mistery.
"Yes and...?" Zach speaks up.
"Jonah isn't over you Y/N! He did all of this to get your attention. When you said you weren't going back to him in any way, not even friendship, he felt hurt. You need to talk to him. Now!" Corbyn pushes me upstairs and I go.
I really feel like I have to. I want to understand him after all.
It's almost 9pm, I've been here all day and Jonah hasn't come down to eat anything all day. This is what gets me worried.
I gain the courage to knock on his door and freak out right after I do it.
"Go away!" he says, his voice sounds tired and croaky and he seems annoyed.
"We need to talk!" I say loud enough for him to hear and know it's me. I'm over here really trying not to stutter.
He sighs and I hear a little "come in".
I open the door and walk in to find him laying on his bed playing with a ball just trowing it in the air and then catching it. And by the way, only wearing sweat pants. Shit.
"I-I uh." the words just won't come out, I don't know what to say. OMG! Stop Freaking Out!
"Why are you here? I thought I was dead to you, I have been feeling like it too." he says looking at his ball basically rolling his eyes and I just stand there.
"L-look I'm sorry. You just made me angry. That wasn't okay to say." I look down once again. Awkward.
"Why are you here?"
"You haven't eaten all day I'm worried about you. You don't leave this room." I tell his as I walk closer to the bed.
"I ate some cookies a couple hours ago. And why would I leave? I can't do anything fun anyways." he shrugs his shoulders.
"That's not real food. And you can hang out with us you know? Now that your 'amazing' friends left you, we're still here for you. I'm here for you." I get closer to sit down on the edge to the bed.
"They didn't leave me. I asked them to leave. I'm really not that guy! Sorry for ignoring your opinion." he looks at my eyes finally and I can see the truthness and still a bit of hurt in his eyes.
"It's not your fault. Well, not all of it was your fault. They influenced you into being like them. I'm just really glad you're back to your old self. Kind of."
"What do you mean kind of? I did it for you!" Jonah looks at me confused.
"I didn't mean it like that. You're still not the same person you used to. I miss hearing your laugh and seeing you smile at the boys like you used to do when they started doing stupid shit. I want that back." I look at him and he looks down at his lap before sitting up a bit, but still leaning on the pillows behind him.
"Come here." he pats the spot next to him and I go sit there immediatly. It's like an instinct. He grabs my hand playing with my fingers and not looking at me. I'm still facing him.
"I realised I was being a dumbass and I came back to reality but when we last talked you made me believe you were done with me, like you never wanted to see me again in your life. That scared me a bit 'cause I need you in my life, I really do. You always bring me up, you're real with me and I guess it felt like a break up all over again. It still does." he talks quietly and looks shy.
"Hey, saying that burned my throat, I was trying to convince myself I didn't need you but I guess I clearly do. Avoiding you is the hardest thing to do." I put my hand on my forehead, in some funny and dramatic way because Jonah laughed.
Wow. My heart just fluttered.
He's gorgeous. His smile is beautiful.
"I fucked up didn't I? I ruined things between us. You hate me and I can't get you back." he says his voice barely audible.
"Y-you want me back." I repeat letting it sink in.
I think he realises what he just said and suddently becomes very awkward.
"Y-yes I uh I never really got over you but obviously I blew my chances so..." he looks down looking like he's about to cry. So am I honestly.
I just hope Corbyn was right...
I lean foward and crash our lips together, my hand meets his jaw just to go down his neck and chest, while our lips move in perfect symmetry. He seems a bit shoked still just like me and so I pull away.
"I'm sorry I didn't-" Jonah cuts me off with his lips and I can't complain. I kiss him back as he holds me close.
When we pull away he smiles letting his hands caress my waist.
"Does this mean you forgive me for being a total douchebag? 'Cause I regret it everyday. I still love you." he puts some hair behind my ear.
"I do forgive you but I also need you to forgive me for shouting at you."
"I do. I don't care about that as long as you promise to not leave me again." he pulls me into his lap.
"I promise." I kiss his lips once again. "I love you."
"I love you more." he kisses my neck while hugging me. I hug him back.
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That was long one haha. It was requested so I hope you like it ♥♥
