Love Me Harder || A.G & J.B ||

|20| Love Me Harder

Ariana::Grande

Day turned into night and my friends left my house, leaving me alone with my thoughts. Justin was on his way back over to see where I'm at with my feelings after I already told him how I felt.
I wrapped my body in my throw blanket that was on the couch. I stared at the time, I was nervous as the minutes passed by.

Out of no where my door flung open, making me jump.
"Sorry I should've knocked." Justin spoke as he made his way over to me. "Yeah you should've."
He bent down to kiss my cheek before he sat down on the couch with me. Once Justin sat down he got straight into it. "So?"
"So, I wanted to just discuss things with you now. No yelling, no bringing up friends, only the memories that we loved and hated with each other."

Justin simply nodded in agreement with me. "I like that." He grinned, "Okay." I said softly. "Before we get started, do you want anything to eat or drink?"
"Yes please. To both." He chuckled. I got up from the couch and walked over to the kitchen to grab some snacks and water for us to have, while we broke each others hearts. Once I had everything, I walked back and handed it to him. "Thank you." He said grabbing the items from my hands.

"You go first." I smiled leaning more into the couch. "Alright. What should I start with?"
"Hmm, The first time you saw me and then I'll go after."
Justin smiled, "The first time I saw you." He started off. "I thought you were so pretty, but I was still getting over Selena. You were everything I wanted in a person, but I just couldn't love you in that moment."
I grinned at him. "When I first saw you I was eternally screaming because I had a crush on you before I was even signed. It felt like a dream when I first saw you...To be honest whenever I see you it still feels like a dream." Justin's face had a glimmer of happiness, but then it disappeared. "Ariana, what is the purpose of this conversation? Can't you just tell me what your decision is?" I rolled my eyes. "Then what was the point of you making me have a day to decide on what I wanted for us? This is for you to know why I made the decision I made, so you can hear it from my point of view."

Justin looked down at his lap, "I'm sorry, we'll do it this way."
"Thank you...Now, why did you want to ask me out?" I sat there and stared at him while he thought about his answer. "I did because when you showed me that you cared about me, it made me feel like there was a place for me in this world. You made me laugh when I didn't feel like it and making sure that everything was okay with me. I've never thanked you for that."

"You shouldn't have to thank me for doing what is right to do." Justin shrugged, "Not many girls have done that for me, except for Hailey, but you were the first one to actually show me that you had my back no matter what."
"Justin you know that I treat people the way I want to be treated, I would do anything for you...I really would, but you shouldn't have to feel like you aren't meant to be anything. I mean you are Justin freaking Bieber for crying out loud." I smiled at him, earning a smile from him too. "Thank you, I appreciate it."

I gave him a smile and perked up a little bit, "You're welcome. I just want you to know that in the moment that you asked me out was so perfect. I will forever have that night in London imprinted in my head. Along with how we broke the internet once I posted that we were official."
I couldn't help, but smile at the memory because it was the best one that I've had in my whole dating life. It was time to move on from the good memories to the ones that I try not to remember.

"Last memory stretch." I grinned and Justin nodded, taking a sip of his water. "Any bad memories of us?" Justin closed his eyes and chuckled, "For me it was when we broke up the first time and had to pretend that we were together, so we aced our promotion tour." I giggled a little, knowing that that period of time was the most awkward thing we had to do, but we got through it...Kinda.
"I might have to agree with you on that. Although, I was so mad at you that I wanted nothing to do with you. I even felt like that the second time." Justin chimed in, "Third times the charm right?" He wiggled his eye brows.

I felt my eyes water because this was it. This was the moment that we were waiting for. Me to say how I really felt. "Why are you about to cry?" The panic returned to Justin's face. "Ari, please don't cry." He climbed over to me and wrapped me in his arms. Another place where I felt safe and loved. "I'm going to cry regardless Justin. There is no way to escape it." I tried to laugh to lighten up the mood.
"So what is next for us then? Whatever you choose I promise to hold up to the deal we made...Even if I don't agree with it." Just explained as he stared into my eyes. I took a deep breath and closed my eyes, letting the happy memories once again fill my mind. My favorite memory, when he came over and helped me write a song and then the memory of him surprising me at Disney World for my birthday.

I opened my eyes and began to speak.

"Justin." I held his hand. "I loved our journey together and I am grateful that you have held my hand through the start of my career. There were times you brought peace to me and times where you brought me heartache...From this I loved and grew as a person and for that I say thank you." I smiled. "But these last couple of months without kissing you and laying with you have been hard for me, I will admit that, but there is a line that I drew and vowed to myself to never be in a situation like that again."

Justin was sitting there wide eyed, with nothing to say as I paused my mini speech.

"I don't want to have anxiety about if you are okay or not, I don't want to wake up to the tabloids making me look like the bad person. I also don't want to be the one to feel like I've been cheated on twice. I just want to be a girl who is happy about the boy she is with and who doesn't have to worry if my boyfriend is sticking his dick somewhere where it's not supposed to be." I took a breath. "Justin you loved me."

"No, I do love you. There is no past tense with my love for you." I shook my head. "It is past tense, Justin. Don't deny it. I already told you that I can see it with you and Hailey. Now what I'm asking for you is to let me go and love Hailey for me. Love her better than you love me." I gave a soft smile. "Ariana no. Why?"

"You just didn't love me harder Justin." A tear escaped my eye. "I love you and I still want to be friends and hang out. Just be better than you were with me. You can go now." I stood up and walked towards the door.
"My mind was made up yesterday when I first asked you to come over."

"I understand. I do still and will forever love you Ariana." Justin stood up and followed behind me. "Bye Justin, I'll see you around."
"I'll see you around Ariana." He gave me a kiss on my cheek that then followed with a long hug before he hopped in his car and drove home.

I walked back in my house and sat on my couch staring into space. I felt a big weight lift from me and it was amazing. I then grabbed the notepad from the table next to me and began to write down some lyrics.

"Cause if you want to keep me you gotta gotta gotta gotta got to love me harder..."

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