as i am getting older. i'm realizing a lot about myself.
one thing i've realized (among many other things wrong with me) is that i am an extremely jealous person.
i sometimes am so consumed by thoughts of myself and how i'm feeling, that when no one notices the war that i'm having in my own mind, i get angry. and mad. and jealous that everyone has someone to talk to, to lean on and i think that i'm all alone even though i know i'm not.
and i hate it.
i wish i was able to talk about how i'm feeling and voice why i feel this way but i remain in solitude and i'm still trying to understand why.
it sucks.
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june 6, 2018 - 11:14pm
