Always been big 4

still in love

Okay so Aaron has been acting weird as hell for the past week. He barely talks to me, he don't call no more, and he be acting strange. I'm going to have a talk with him about this.

I decided I was going to tell him about himself today. I got up, took a shower, got dressed, and curled my hair in big shiny curls. I put on a blue, green and black dress that hugs my coca cola bottle shaped body, and put on some black heels. I put on some make-up and got in my jeep and left to his house. Mind you its 3:00 in the afternoon.

I pull up and there is a red convertible in his driveway. Why? I don't know. Maybe his mom has a guest over or something. I got out and saw that the house front door was cracked open.

What the hell!? I walked in and saw panties and boxers on the floor. Again, What the hell!? I could hear faint noises. It sounded like people.

I walked around and saw a pair of car keys and a bra. I saw some leggings and a t shirt.

I decided to walk up the steps to Aaron's room. I was outside his door, hearing moans of his and a girl. I was hurt. I was shaking.

I opened the door and saw him fucking the shit out of Shakira from behind. My jaw dropped, anger flooded my inner being, and hurt covered my heart.

He looked up at me and stopped what he was doing. Shakira jumped up and tried to cover herself. I just stood there in shock.

I frowned and backed away from the door as tears poured down my face. I looked down at the floor and walked out feeling as if someone had just ripped out my heart.

I was at my car door when I felt Aaron pull me by my arm. I pulled back and tried to get in my car. He kept grabbing me.

"Please, I'm so sorry Charmed" he begged.

"Don't touch me with those hands. You have hurt my to my soul. I should have known something was wrong when you were acting strange. I was coming to talk to you about it. I guess you had more important... things.... to...do" I broke down and got in my car. I shut the car and locked it.

He beat on the window. He went from apologizing to calling me every name in the book to threatening me. I just cried.

I can't wait to graduate. All the feelings of self doubt and hurt and unhappiness came back. I couldn't have wanted to do it all more and I can't wait to leave and never come back.

I pulled off leaving him to yell and chase after me. I drove home and went upstairs to my room. I went to my bathroom and got a raiser and cut my stomach. I cut three little scares. It wasn't deep, but it did draw blood. I only penetrated the skin.

I put alcohol and a bandage on it. I then took some pain pills that help you sleep and got in bed. I dozed off.

I ain't fucked you in a looong tiiime

missin kissin you missin lickin you

missin sexin you a long tiiimmee

My phone was ringing. I answered.

"Hello." my voice was laced with sadness and depression.

"Baby just let me explain. I'm still in love with her and I'm so sorry I hurt you. Please forgive me. Give me another chance" he said.

"I hate you." I said nonchalantly.

"Baby I know, but we can work it out I promise I'll do better by you. I promise." he said.

"No. There is no working this out" I said before hanging up the phone and turning it off.

hey all

I know I know

I actually planned everything out in a summery of the story.

Oh it ain't over yet though

We still got plenty of chapters to go.

I'll update later.

smooches