Lost

Chapter 7

     The sizzling scorching sun lights up our Earth signaling its spiritual rise,as if flaking of an extensively down-hearted dark sky.It's 5:00 am. I've been barely sleeping for 3 hours since my sudden awake. I have the impression that I'm about to lose my peace of mind,I feel the urge to smash mirrors and punch walls. Is it because of that omnious nightmare? Or because of the miserable things running after each others like they are playing hide and seek. I feel in my bones that I'm a nervous adrenalized wreck. I rise on my feet, stagger through the corridor that connects my room and the bathroom and decide to take another blistering warm shower to calm my senses. I start thinking about my whole life, realizing how crestfallen I am, that a huge pile of nothingness is put in a blender and somebody hit the *Whip* button so it's me who came out, that I'm not good enough for anybody-even my damn self- and nobody is good for me...

    " Katie! I want to talk to you a bit before heading to work, dear!" A voice cuts my train of thoughts.

    "Coming!"I answer back briskly.

      I actually don't want to argue with her again.We are already like  two chickens at each other's throat.I make up my mind about wearing pink toms, icy-blue jeans and a black tank top. I pull my hair into a ponytail & curl the ends. I decide to see what mum wants from me without any problems , just a 2-minute converstation isn't a copious deal. I sit on the opposite zebra sofa, that used to scare me when I was little and still does but, I have to sit on it to avoid anything mum could do.

      She ganders at me several times. I can see behind these flickering hazel eyes that there's something a miss & totally wrong with her, though I don't see her alot because of her job.

    "What mum?" I break our silence in between us.

   "Well Kaitlyn, there's a favor I need you to do to me , please." She pleads before she could even tell me why.

     "It's something for herself, she is just taking advantage of you for herself , just believe me for once , don't be always a dumb fucking jerk!" My subconscious' voice blares through my mind, believing for once in a lifetime that she is so damn right.

    "Well, my boss has told me before that he loves you and sees how intelligent and bright you are, he just, likes you alot. Ummm.... all he wants is to let his son invite you out for a day, just once." She tattles alot of words that I just find as a 5kg load on my mind.

     "You mean hang out with him?" I question hesitantly.

    "Mmmm, a date. Please Katie, he'll give me a good raise!" She explains.Her provoking,troublesome words are igniting an uncontrollably fierce fire in me.

    "A date???! You're kidding right??? Of course not!I Am not going on a date for you to have a fuckin' raise of useless money for you to buy pricless things rather than be with your only daughter whom is left from your 2 children!!!!Don't you even ponder that you could lose me like poor Blake? He was my only one I really love in this whole shit called life!" I explode.

    "Katie!" She calls.

    "No mum! Shut the hell up!" I yell at her, take my bag and slam the door infront of her face, not regretting a single thing of what I have just done.

     I resolved that I should hurry to my car so she won't follow me, will she even do? Is she mad or something? A raise? Really? A date as a payment for a fuckin' raise?? What the hell is with these people ?? Are they crazed?Are they lunatics? Raving people??!

      I feel an infinite amount of satisfaction with myself for revealing those unsaid words to her. I try to pacify my tensed nerves that are straining every ounce of skin in me by listening to 'I Miss You' by 5 Seconds of Summer. I don't like anyone of the band except for Luke, he's inspiring. I didn't focus on the avenue or the vehicles every where I just let the lyrics carry me to my own world of thoughts.

      I park my car and by chance, I find Louis wandering the school hall.He is hypontized by out-of-this-world,eye-popping,jaw-dropping eyes and velvety chocolate brown hair.

    "LOUIS!" I yawn.

   " Hey beautiful!" He replies back making my heart slide down my knees vastly.

    "Here's your book, simply fascinating." I grin at him.

    "Yea, I know.So you're sure about coming to the party? You seem exhausted, or mad at someone." he mutters.

    "Yea,I'm coming.I want to have an unforgettable night." I explain.

    "What's wrong with you? What happened?" He inquires making me feel like I want to throw myself in his shoulders and cry for ages.

     "Well, I argued with mum because she demands to let me go on a date with her boss' son for a raise." I just empty my heart from all these words filling them.

    "Whoa whoa, what the hell?? really Katie?? Ofcourse you shouldn't!"

    "I won't.Let's just forget about it, are you coming to pick me up tonight ?? Or should I just go by myself and meet you there?"

    "It would be my pleasure beautiful lady." He mutters leaning forward as if am sort of a queen and he's my lord.I can see him beaming at me with undisguised admiration.

    "Hahahahaha!"

    "Hahahahahahaha!"

     We keep on laughing.Louis bids me goodbye because he has to go for his Chemistry class, while I go to my boring Physics class.I take a seat in the 2nd row,getting my things  to start the lesson by organizing my stuff. As I do that, my new fushia sticky notes fall onto the ground. I can distinct tanned hands picking the notes up and handing them to me, it's obviously Laura.

    "Hey Laura!" that's all I can say.

     "Hey Katie, where were you yesterday? I heard some rumors that you and Louis were making out in the school's cafeteria while cleaning, after you were caught throwing notes in the biology class, is that true?" She speaks quickly ending with a lifted brow.

    "Silence!" Mrs. Ellsa-that is her name- whoops.

   "I'll tell you later." That's all I can  say from my sudden shock.

     I had Physics,Maths and English classes.I decide that I should start heading home to get ready for that party.I just don't know what to wear tonight, I'll simply decide as soon as I get home. I step on the threshold of my house glaring everywhere to see if she is here. Well,after my little- 10-minute journey,I discover she's not here which is great with me! It's 5.30 pm and Louis's picking me up at 8.00 pm, I just think I have sometime for a third warm shower. After my perfect bubbly bath, I put a towel on my hair and wear my robe. I stand anxiously in front of a messy pile of clothes that's called a wardrobe biting my bottom lip thinking about what to wear.