Chapter 5: The Truth Untold/ 전하지 못한 진심

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"Full of loneliness
This garden bloomed
Full of thorns
I bind myself in this sand castle

What is your name
Do you have a place to go
Oh could you tell me?
I saw you hiding in this garden

And I know
All of your warmth is real
The blue flower your hand was picking
I want to hold it but

It's my fate
Don't smile on me
Lie to me
Because I can't get closer to you
There's no name you can call me

You know that I can't
Show you me
Give you me
I can't show you a ruined part of myself
Once again I put a mask again and go to see you
But I still want you

Bloomed in a garden of loneliness
A flower that resembles you
I wanted to give it to you
After I take off this foolish mask

But I know
I can't do that forever
I have to hide
Because I'm a monster

I am afraid
I am shattered
I'm so afraid
That you will leave me again in the end
Once again I put on a mask and go to see you

The only thing I can do
In the garden
In this world
Is to bloom a pretty flower that resembles you
And to breathe as the me that you know
But I still want you
I still want you

Maybe back then
A little
Just this much
If I had the courage to stand before you
Would everything be different now

I'm crying
That's disappeared
That's fallen
Left alone in this sandcastle
Looking at this broken mask

And I still want you
But I still want you
But I still want you
And I still want you"

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Jin gently shut the pages of Jack's diary wondering why someone that was so on love would commit such atrocities.

Was it a fake love? No... I think it was real up to a point...but...but that love he cherished eventually made him mad... love is so mad? I guess what they say is true then. Love can drive you mad, but is a love that makes you mad real love? Now that I think of it, looking at what Jack became I doubt his love for her was so true... Jin thought to himself as he glanced back at the words in Jack's diary.

" If I had the courage to stand before you would everything be different now?" Jin stated as he reread the words aloud.

"Do know think what we knew of Jack was not everything?" Yoongi asked as he appeared through the open door of Jin's underground workshop.

Jin nodded his head, "Maybe it was like the 'La Città di Smeraldo' story? Maybe he wanted to save or help her, but he was too late. I mean you have to agree, if she were alive Jack would never have tried to merge with the original Jack the Ripper and become a serial killer."

Yoongi nodded his head, "That's true... Hyung, about yesterday... EunSoo still hasn't awoken... Laika is watching over with Taehyung, but the situation isn't any better. She's still unconscious."

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