The bad boy and the loner girl

Chapter 10: the bad boy cries?

Its now friday and Mags is coming back tomorrow! I am so excited i think im going to freak the freak out.

I can hardly contain my excitement as i walk out the classroom doors for lunch.

Its friday friday gettin down on fridaaayyy!

Rebecca black did have an annoying voice but she only did that song for fun so im not one to make fun of it.

Ok maybe i did at first.. bUT then i heard her story so i stopped.

Oh by the way i haven't talked to jace since the day we got back from the motel. Its only been a couple days but i mean its hard to avoid someone....

Ok im not avoiding him, im trying to find him but i can tell he's avoiding me.

Which stinks, i want to talk to him for frig sakes! Is that really so hard for him?

I want to tell him not to tell anyone what i said the other night because i didn't even mean to say it! Not even Mags knows which really worries me.

We have a strict tell everything policy between us, and ive followed through besides that little suicide detail.

She knows about my dad, pretty much at least. I just couldn't bring myself to tell her how weak i got.

When i woke up in the hospital that day my mom said she 'handled it' meaning she wouldn't have to get embarrassed that her oldest daughter tried to end her life. Needs to keep up that reputation so why not lie to everyone.

I guess i dont really mind because i don't want people knowing either.

But now Jace knows... Or should i say Burtamous hahahahaha.

Gets me every time.

I grab my lunch and head outside deciding to go out back again to see if he's their. He better be because i am tired of looking for him on my lunches.

Every other day i came back here he would be no where in sight so id just continue on with my life but today i think im going to stay for lunch....

Thats ganna be some scary shiz.

I take a deep breath before turning the corner.

Well here i am and surprise surprise theres no Jace.

Ouuuu i think i see that kid from last time, he offered me a smoke but Jace freaked out. He seemed really nice, hes by himself again which makes it easier to go up to him.

Ok beatrice stop being such a shy socially awkward loner. Make a friend.

Alright im doing it.

I walk over to him and take a seat beside him.

He looks up at me before breaking into a smile.

"Well look who it is." He grins.

"I know i know, long time no talk." I say as i get out my sandwich.

Ohmigosh i cant eat in front of him! Thats embarrassing, what if i chew too loud!? Hes not eating so it would just be awkward wouldn't it?

I dont get how im my complete self in front of Jace but then everyone else its like im this shy scared twit.

No i need to stop thinking about him, he is not important right now.

I shake my head before bravely taking a bite.

"That looks yummy, what kind it is?" Mystery boy asks.

"Wouldnt you like to know!" I joke.

He smiles and pulls out his phone.