If I Die Trying ~ Yoonmin

The sixth chapter ~

"How did you mess your solo? You always do everything perfectly. I'm asking as a friend, not as a leader," Hoseok says, trying to sound angry. That's the thing with Hoseok, he has no clue how to be angry. He's just very disappointed at Jimin.

That's the worst for Jimin. "I'm so sorry, we're gonna lose and it's all my fault. I should leave the group, so I won't ruin other's opportunities," Jimin says with low quiet voice.

If Jimin was that same innocent happy lively kid that he was at 17, he would be crying his eyes out, kneeling in front of Hoseok and his dance mates, praying them to apologize him.

Now he's too tired.

He's never going to be good for anyone. He'll always mess at some point. That's just how he grew up to be.

Then the pink haired turns his back and walks towards the exit. Hoseok can't stop him. Maybe he's just gonna take some air, he guesses.

Outside feels nice, it's spring and it's not too warm yet. Jimin walks to a tiny park area that has few bushes and benches around. He runs his had through his hair and sits to the bench.

Nobody is there.

Expect Yoongi who followed Jimin, as he saw him exit the building.

"Do you smoke?" Yoongi asks, making Jimin startle and look at him with round eyes.

"I..sometimes but it's not..." Jimin stutters but Yoongi interrupts him as he hands a cigarette for him. He just hums and takes it, waiting for fire.

"You seem stressed, maybe it helps," Yoongi says sounding indifferent. He first lights his own and then Jimin's.

It becomes quiet again. Quiet meaning between them - Jimin's mind is louder than it has been in a while. And Jimin's mind is never quiet, so it can only be imgines what a tornado of thoughts are going on there now.

Yoongi sits next to him after standing awkwardly there for a while and crosses his other leg on top of other one. While Jimin is overall uncapable to say anything at all, Yoongi just doesn't know what to say. He's not exactly the outgoing type of a guy.

"I think you're the best dancer of your team," Yoongi says quietly, trying to break the silence. Jimin almost rolls his eyes, but understands its a compliment.

"Are you blind?" he simply answers with a question.

"What do you mean? You're still phenomenal," blue haired squints his eyes, looking at his face. He notices something weird in Jimin's aura.

Jimin chooses not to answer anything and keeps smoking, hoping he could sufforcate and forget that he's next to his first love. Silence falls on them again.

Jimin looks pale. Like he hasn't eaten for days. Like he hasn't slept well in years. That's what Yoongi notices. That makes him worried.

What if the fact that he stopped contacting Jimin and basically disappeared from Jimin's like caused that. They were brothers after all, best buddies. Until he broke up with that cheater and Jimin did what he did.

Yoongi knows he may have reacted too strongly towards Jimin. He was there for him and tried to do what he saw to be righteous, unlike his ex who never even glanced Yoongi again.

Jimin checks the time and sighs deeply. Throws the cigarette to ground and steps on it, gets up to stretch. Yoongi does the same without stretching.

"I guess we should go in and wait for the winners to get announced," Yoongi says and turns around to walk back inside.

"I'm not going to," Jimin tells him back, avoiding any sort of eye contact with Yoongi.

"You're not going to what? Go inside and get your grand prize? Jimin are you serious?"

There it is. That's so typical Yoongi. Jimin feels his heart jump over a beat. He knows he'll end up walking inside when it's Yoongi telling him to do so. He's so armless around him. He'd jump in front of a moving car for him if it came to that. So he just sighs, starts walking head pressed towards the ground. "Okay then," he says as he passes Yoongi.

That's what I thought, Yoongi thinks and follows him. 

A/N: Yes, Jimin is perfectionist. And sick..