If I Die Trying ~ Yoonmin

Twelfth chapter ~

Yoongi walks inside a hospital room, non-secured one as Jimin wasn't jeopardizing himself anymore. "Hi," he smiles and without a doubt he goes embrace him, harder than he ever has. In fact it's not something Yoongi would do. Having so much time inside his thoughts and being scared to death about losing his friend, he changed. 

"How are you?" Yoongi asks still hugging Jimin, stroking his back. Jimin has closed his eyes, so he wouldn't cry out of happiness. Being embraced by Yoongi feels like an accomplishment. "I'm happy," Jimin whispers carefully and hopes he never lets go.

"I brought what I promised," Yoongi says then and pulls out. "Plus laptop, because I figured you may want to see a movie." The older grabs a bag of chocolate cookies and gives them to Jimin. 

Jimin holds the bag and stares at it, smiling alone wandering in his happy thoughts. A tear drops down to his cheek without a notice. Yoongi doesn't say a word when he wipes it away, sitting next to him. 

"Yoongi... In the morning before the medication I had some time to think straight and came to the conclusion I should apologize. So... I'm sorry," Jimin tells him, whispering the end of it. They medicate Jimin with mild sedatives, which makes him slightly sleepy and calm, causing him trouble to think too much. 

Yoongi shakes his head. "It's not your place to apologize. You're not okay but you will be, there will be many pretty memories ahead," he says, holding on to Jimin's hand. "I was scared to death to lose you. But it was a wake up call on my part," he continues and prevents Jimin from pulling his hand away. "You matter to me Jimin," he says and looks straight into his eyes.

Jimin grasps air but something is squeezing in his heart. "No-no..." he says and shakes his head. Jimin closes his eyes shut so tight it hurts. 

"Jimin?" Yoongi asks.

"Jimin? Get up and look at me, they're outside. Jimin-a, do you want to play a game? Hide, I'll seek." A person. Smile. Jimin runs to hide. He giggles.

Hit. Second hit. Jimin is scared for his life. Not again. No. Stop it!

"Jimin, wake up! Help!" Yoongi screams as Jimin doesn't seem to be in this reality. He feels so helpless, not knowing what is happening. Two nurses run inside and inject something in Jimin, takes few seconds before he calms down. 

"What happened?" the other nurse asks, as the other one puts Jimin to lay down. 

"I was just talking about what I've realised recently and suddenly he went like this," Yoongi says, biting his lower lip nervously. "C--can I stay here?" he asks. The other nurse nods after checking Jimin' vitals. "Just press this button if something doesn't feel right," nurse says before both of them walk away, closing the door behind them.

Yoongi has met too many silence moments lately. He used to enjoy it, now it's torture. He is afraid to grab Jimin's hand, as if he would break. Like how his own heart is breaking looking at him. Jimin, what's going on with you? he thinks.

He sits there listening to a build-in clock tick annoyingly, waits until Jimin wakes up. 

Jimin opens his eyes slightly and gasps for air quietly. In his mind he begs for Yoongi to just hold him, please, please just hold me, I'm so scared of my mind right now. The older boy looks into the other one's eyes and wipes his tears away. He doesn't say anything when Jimin with his last strength pulls him into a hug - he just wraps his arms tightly around him as if he would fall down otherwise. That's when he knows his part on this. Jimin needs him to embrace him and feel safe. That much he is capable of giving. 

A/N: Ok this sucks, my mind is full of ideas but I just want to write some fluff.. Struggles of angst. Plus this is probably too short.. I'll write the following chapter quickly.