If I Die Trying ~ Yoonmin

Sixteenth Chapter (final)

You would think a family is there for you, a safe place to grow up while playing and laughing, even crying without being scared of getting beaten.

His face was always bright and a sweet smile never drained away. He never cried let along leave any tear behind him. He would never let me get hurt.

My teary eyes would always be wiped with his sleeves and be comforted by his warm hug.

The father he so dearly wanted to look up and respect, hated them all. He came home, drunk and started beating mom. Then Jihyuk ran to protect mom, just to get his small body to be slammed against the hallway wardrobe. 

I was used to this. I only went to Jihyuk to see if he was okay. But this time he was lifeless, laying on the floor. Mom kept screaming, begging father to stop. 

"Jihyuk... wake up," I whisper alone to the thin air. 

Blood stains the floor underneath. 

Mom rushes next to me. I can't hear anything. 

I only see a flash of a knife moving in the air. 

"RUN! JIMIN RUN!" is the last thing my mom shouted at me. 

And I ran. Left the house. Kept running until my legs gave up and I fell onto the ground.

"Help, help, someone... anyone?" I whispered with  shaky voice, left it hover in the air before closing my eyes.

Jimin breathes in heavily as he gets up on the bed, his heart beating 200 per minute. Anger, confusion and sadness all storm up on him as he looks around, not sure how to sit.

"Jimin!" he hears a familiar voice and looks at the sweet smile. Immediately he calms down, breathes too much air off from his lungs. 

"Hey, I think you got a big flashback, am I right?" his doctor asks. Jimin nods and sighs heavily.

"I.. I.. My.. He's dead," he shakes and bites his lower lip too harshly and tastes blood. 

"We can discuss it later if you want to? I think you need to get some rest for now, you can go when you're ready," his doctor announces and walks away with a smile on her face.

Yoongi sits next to him and takes his hand on his own. "You scared the shit out of me again," he whispers and smiles weakly. "Let's go home, Jungkook said they're cooking for you," he then says.

"Hopefully they won't burn the house down.. Jungkook is a terrible cook," Jimin says and laughs. He feels somewhat relieved too. For the first time in a while the sense of survival stands strong inside him.

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The light at the end of the tunnel approached him faster than he could've ever guessed. He continued going to the group therapy and shared his story. He still sees flashbacks but the worst is over. 

Who would've guessed the biggest hint was in front of Jimin all along. 

Jimin who now stares at Yoongi's focused face, who reads for his upcoming economics exam. Jimin promised he wouldn't disturb him, but he can't help the urge to kiss those lips. 

"Ah Jimin-a," Yoongi mumbles to the kiss but Jimin senses his smile through. "Mm?" he mumbles back with a seductive voice. Yoongi shakes his head and pushes Jimin off with his finger and hides his face behind the book.

He pouts and turns around to watch the ceiling. From habit he gropes his wounds. 

"What if I died?" he suddenly says and wins Yoongi's attention under second. "What?" Yoongi asks alarmingly. Jimin shrugs his shoulders. "Just... I don't know.. Like I wouldn't have ever felt this happiness, this moment... watching you knowing what I know now," he whispers and bites his lip, getting teary eyed. 

Yoongi smiles gently and grasps the hand Jimin ran over his wounds that nearly killed him. 

"But you didn't," Yoongi says and puts the book away to climb on top of Jimin. He looks at the teary eyes with comfort and places Jimin's hand on his chest: "and you're here," he adds and gets closer:"and I'm here," he says before pressing his lips on Jimin's for a long slow kiss. 

"Yoongi I don't think I would've remembered my past without you.." Jimin says and cups his love's face on his hands, looking at his eyes. "I figured out who you remind me of and why from the moment I saw you, you felt so important to me. And to why it hurt me so bad to see you, even when I loved you so much," he says tear flowing out.

"It's because you reminded me of my brother, who I had buried somewhere deep inside my heart and forgot, because of the painful reality."

He can't hold his tears no longer and lets them drain out. Yoongi wraps his arms around him. He holds on strongly and rocks him gently, comforting. Yes, let it all out. It's okay. I'm here. And I'm gonna stay.

"Jimin, I'll never let anyone hurt you, ever. I'll  protect you even if it was the last thing I did. So don't worry ever again.. I love you."

Jimin nods. "If I let you read, will you come to see the memorial stone with me on Saturday?" he wipes off his tears and takes a deep breath. 

"Of course I will." 

A/N: So there it is, last chapter. I hope you enjoyed and would vote. I will be publishing new stories in the future, evolve as a writer and keep going :) Thank you so much for reading all the way until the end! I will be rewriting the chapters later in time.