No Time To Heal [BTS J.Jk]

IX

„You know you can tell us anything, right?"

A nod.

„And you know you can count on us, right?"

A nod.

„And you know that we care about you, right?"

A nod.

Yes, of course, he knew. But it didn't feel like what they keep on telling him.

If they cared, why would he feel so empty?

If they genuinely cared, why was he in pain?

If they wholeheartedly cared, why was he still hearing the voice?

They were seated in their kitchen, eating their dinner after arriving back at the dorm and showering.

He was lucky to have his own bathroom. Otherwise, he would have had either ended up waiting alone in the living room for his turn to shower or... well yeah. There was no other option.

He wanted to avoid the living area at any cost. No way in hell would he even go near that area alone ever again.

But to be honest, now at this moment, he would rather be sitting in that area than at the dining table.

It was more than just awkward. No one was talking. They were just sitting in silence, eating and constantly staring at their plates.

After their ride home, no one really said anything.

Maybe it was his fault for only answering with nods. But who could blame him? He was tired, sleep deprived, and on the brink of passing out. He was still sick and maybe not in his right mind.

Was that the reason why he was hearing the voice? Because he was sick? Because he was out of his mind?

Probably not, but he could still hope.

As people always say:

Hope dies last

But that didn't change anything about the fact that he was probably the reason for this whole awkward situation.

There might be other reasons for his brothers to be this tense and silent. Maybe they were just too tired to bother.

But what if you really are the reason for this atmosphere?

I am not. Jungkook told himself, shaking his head slightly.

He wasn't the reason. He couldn't be. How would it even be his fault? He didn't really do anything wrong, did he?

Did you?

I didn't, leave me be.

„-kook?"

"Huh?" His head shot up, and he came eye to eye with his oldest hyung.

Jin had a frown on his face. His posture was slightly tense, and he was just about to reach out to the younger to shake him a little bit.

„Are you ok? You don't really look so well."

The maknae just shook his head at his oldest and put on a small smile. „Don't worry. I'm fine, just a little sleepy." Very sleepy.

Jin was hesitant to say anything. He looked to the other members who also sent worried glances to their youngest. He nodding after a while and decided on sending the younger to his room.

„You can go to your room if you want. We can postpone the meeting until tomorrow. Just rest well, ok?"

He nodded yet again. „Excuse me." He stood up, bowed slightly, and slowly made his way to his room.