In an instant,
Everything changed
There was no sunshine.
But, greater pain.
All the people,
That should have stayed
Turned their backs,
And went away.
I gave up trying,
To start again.
All those messages,
I didn't send.
I could have tried
But I didn't.
My heart,
Just wasn't in it.
My life has gone by way to fast.
There is no time to make it last.
I'm almost an adult.
And all this numbness is my fault.
I became silent.
My past became violent.
Because of who I was back then,
There seemed to be no friends,
That would laugh like we used too.
So I promise this is what I had to do.
I dyed my hair,
I died inside.
Life isn't fair,
But so I've tried.
I smoked Mary Jane,
I went insane.
Maybe that's because,
I can't feel anything.
I wanted the boys.
But not commitment,
Because every time I commit ,
I end up bed ridden.
Afraid to open up,
Afraid to even care.
Should I try again?
Or do I even dare?
I started cussing,
But that I'm gonna keep.
Because people suck,
They make me weak.
People started dying
And I started crying.
I lost my friend
Now there's no denying.
I'm not okay.
But I promise I will be.
Oh and one more thing.
I'm good at lying.
~Annaka Logue❤️
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Excerpts From A Book Ill Never Write| #Wattys2018
Poetry©2017 By dallywinston1738 or Annaka Logue or Annaka Marie ||All rights reserved.|| ||Plagerism is punishable by law|| These silent thoughts were stuck in my head. Wanting, begging,pleading to be let out. They never ended up becoming more than a few...
