coach••a hannie fanfic

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•annie•

i sniffled as i picked up my phone.

a text from austin.

'can't make it baby girl, your needs will have to wait.'

he messaged.

i sent a quick 'okay'.

i set my phone down and slid it across the bathroom floor until i reached the tub.

i let out a soft whimper as i looked up at the lights.

i squinted as the light shined in my eyes, shooting pain through my head.

i gasped in pain as i looked down to the ground.

i had been crying for what seemed like forever.

i felt like i wanted to be alone, but at the same time i wanted someone to hold me.

i wanted someone to hold me tight and comfort me.

i wanted someone to tell me that everything's going to be okay.

but nobody's here and nothing's okay because i always have to screw it up.

i thought about how often this happens.

i always have these moments, because i'm semi depressed.

meaning, if something like this happens, it will reflect in my brain, leaving me to get depressed.

but it'll fade away, after a short while.

tears formed in my eyes.

i hugged my knees, burying my head in between them.

"don't do it annie. don't do it."

i repetitively whispered to myself.

i let my tears pour.

whimpers escaped i let my head go back, leaning against the door.

"don't do it annie, snap out, snap out...fight it annie, don't do it..."

i told myself.

i sighed, giving in to the sadness.

i opened my cabinet and reached for the hair spray bottle.

i twisted off the top and held it upside down over my hand.

a silver blade dropped into the palm of my hands.

tears fell as i held it in between my fingers.

i pressed it into my hip and dragged it across.

i do this quite often, so it didn't really hurt.

i always do it on a specific spot, just so even my underwear can cover them.

i did it a few more times, making more scars over the old ones.

i sniffled as i slowly stood and rinsed off the blade.

i put it back into the bottle and closed it tight.

i put the bottle in the very back of the cabinet and closed the cabinet shut.

i took a cloth from one of my drawers and soaked it with warm water.

i then squeezed it out and layed it over my hip.

i winced in pain but it soon left no pain.

i wiped up the remains and leftthe cloth in the sink.

i then put on comfy clothes and walked out.

the room was silent.

i took the lingerie and put it back in the box.

i put the box deep into my closet, where nobody would see.

i collapsed on my bed, which gave a small bit of pain through my side.

i shook it off.

i reached for my phone.

i typed in my password and went to my contacts.

i typed in the purple heart and it immediately came up.

i clicked it and messaged him.

"come over. please."

i texted.

i got a response almost immediately.

"on my way. what happened? are you okay?!"

"please just come over. no need to knock."

i didn't get a response.

i sniffed and looked up.

my eyes met with the eyes of hayden summerall.

he came over and sat next to me.

i slowly looked up at him.

i wrapped my arms around him as quickly as i could.

my grip was tight, and my tears were soaking his shirt, but i don't think he cared.

he hugged me back and i felt warmth.

my tears started to stop flowing, giving us both relief.

his hug gave me a small bit of happiness that i didn't have before.

hug gave made me feel safe, which is a feeling i haven't felt in a while.

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PLEASE READ!!!!
so instead of a super long chapter i decided to split it into parts, therefore i won't use up all my ideas on one chapter. also, i'm so so so sorry that i haven't updated. as some of you may know, i live in the middle of florida, usa. i've been on vacation north carolina, usa, and some of you may know that it's a bit far. i haven't had service or wifi, and i just got them back about an hour ago. so i wasn't able to respond to comments, or publish new chapters. i wrote a few chapters to post after this, and because i had no service, they didn't save, and neither did the few chapters i had pre written for the next book coming after this. i tried my best to rewrite this chapter a quickly as possible, so i'm sorry for mistakes, but i hope you guys enjoyed this chapter and i miss your guy's positivity too. ly and sorry for everything including this hour long session of reading the authors note haha