Dear Michael | clifford

Letter 6

September 11th, 2013

Dear Michael,

I feel so weird right now. You just left my house after hours of talking. Everything hurts, my head, my heart. The pain just won't stop.

The second you left my room, I got this aching feeling in my heart. I just feel so lost, Michael. Without you, I feel nothing.

My hands are so cold, even though I wrapped myself into three blankets. I'm shivering and I can't stop crying. Michael, what's happening?

I know I should call you, because you said I could always call but I can't. I can't hurt you. If I call you, you'll be worried and I don't want that. I don't want you to stay up all night just for me. You deserve a life in peace and I deserve to rest in peace.

But before I do that, I still have to tell you so many things.

You think after being raped by your own cousin, it couldn't get worse? Well, it can.

For some reason all of my friends suddenly distanced themselves from me, everyone except Alexa. She was always there. I've known her since kindergarten and we were inseperable. I knew everything about her and she knew everything about me, well almost everything. I wanted to tell her all the stuff that happened but I just couldn't, I didn't want her to think that I'm a slut.

If you ever see Alexa again, Michael, maybe at my funeral, please tell her that I loved her. After you and my family, she was the most important person in my life. She always had my back, even when I started to get depressed. I wouldn't leave the house anymore, I would just stay in my room, staring out the window. She never left. Everyday she came to my house and just comforted me. I cried onto her shoulders and she would just tell me that everything would be alright.

Even though it wouldn't.

That was a few months before you came around. She was my rock, she still is. She's also one of the reasons why I've been holding on for so long but you were the main reason, Michael.

I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you. You were the one for me, my one and only.

But now that I'm gone, I need you to promise me something.

Please find a new girl, make her happy, buy her presents, take her out to fancy restaurants. Make her laugh, make her fall in love with you. Marry her, have children with her. I want you to move on. Don't stay in the past. I want you to be happy, you deserve all the happiness in this world.

I'm so sorry.

Love always,

Mia

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idk what to say i feel so insecure about this fanfiction do people even read it or

well if you do, ilysm

oh and i wrote this with my phone so i'm sorry if there are any typos

bye