Dreamer Of Reality

Chapter 5 ~ (Blur Truth Full Of Lies)

I didn't know what to do or to say, the shock was eating me alive, I am not sure if I'm alive or not...!

Thalia looked at me and I saw the numbness in her cold eyes. "Lia what happened? I mean when? you told me he was in America and now I am in front of his grave ?! is this a prank or what?." I asked with all the sadness that was eating my heart, with all my longing to him, with all the disappointment from Lia and with all my ..... Love for him, I loved him and I waited him for two years, two damn years of waiting and yearning and thinking, and at the end the reality ruined my life by telling me that Luc is dead ?

"Amy, he said he didn't want you to know." Lia said calmly, no coldly. It was like she was waiting for this moment to tell me everything, the shock that was in her eyes when she saw me before a while turned into coldness, it was like she was preparing herself to this moment.

"Tell me everything Lia, please." After two years of showing my fake strength I broke down in front of Lia and Luc's grave, I sat on my knees burrying my fingers in the sand of his grave refusing to believe that Luc is under this ground.

Lia nodded her head lightly and stood up from her spot and wiped her tears with the back of her hand, she always was and still such an over powerful girl. "We can't talk here, let's go to my place and I will tell you everything." She said avoiding the eye contact, I was doing to same but trying to keep an eye on her and study her face from the corner on my eye.

The house was just 5 minutes away from the cemetery, but it was like a whole century for me but I would care less, all what I wanted to know is the truth that has been hidden away from me and of course I wanted to know why would Lia hide such an important thing like this!.

Am I the only one who didn't know about Luc's death? Does Mark know? Why would Lia hide it away from me? When did he die and how? What about his funeral, I am sure his parent didn't bury him immediately without a funeral! Who came that I didn't noticed that?. "Amy we are here." Lia's voice slapped me to the reality, I nodded my head silently and walked behind her to her house.

She opened the door and mentioned to me to follow her to the living room, and that what I did. I took a seat on the couch and she sat in front of me on the other couch, we remained like that for a few minutes until she finally broke the tensioned silence.

"So Amy, what do you want to know?."

"Lia I don't want to look rude but, is that a quistion?." My answer was full of sadness and madness at the same time, and I think she noticed that.

"You know Luc had a problem with running for long time, and at the day of your brother's death Luc said he wanted to have a walk alone and I let him go because my parent's weren't here." She took a deep breath then continued her story, "He ran for a long time down in the city, while he was running he was crossing the street, at the middle of the street he stopped and couldn't move, sure because he ran too much and maybe that coused a huge tragic pain in his leg. While he was standing in the middle of the street a drunken man was driving his car as fast as he can and......" She couldn't continue her sentence but I understood her, talking about him must be painful for her.

"When he was at the hospital he talked to me, in his last minutes whule he was taking his last breathes he asked me to not tell you abput his death because he didn't want you to feel sad, this was his commandment Amy and I couldn't jus-." her sobs interrupted her and I cried along with her, he was thinking about me ? even when he was taking his last breathes the only thing that came to his mind was me! but I just felt that there was something wrong, like a piece that won't fit with this puzzle,  should I ask Lia for more details?.

I looked around me at this house that I used to have a lot of memories in with Luc and Lia, but most of the time I was with Luc. taking a deep breath I looked at Lia trying to ask her more questions because what she had been telling me wasn't enough at all!  but she really looked broken so I just decided to shut up and leave without saying a word.