Dreamer Of Reality

Was I blind and now I opened my eyes? Or was I awake and now I closed my eyes? Am I dreaming of this reality?

They were here in the past, by my side, warming my heart with their charming smiles and all these words that was full of hope and believing in me. Derick, my lovely brother and Luc, my childhood friend, were my everything but both of them left me alone, Derick is gone forever i know that, but there was always a small part of me believing that Luc is coming back someday to show me his warm smile again.

"We are going to stay together neither you like it or not." I could hear their voices in my head but I don't believe them anymore.

Two years ago, I was sixteen years old, I was so excited to go back home just to see my brother Derick waiting for me to hang out with him and Luc without telling our parents, and to my surprise I was lost in imagining what would we do today therefore I didn't realize that I am standing in front on my house, but this time Derick wasn't waiting for me as I expected him to be.

Rushing inside the house looking for him I found my mother's cheeks with a couple of waterfalls and I could easily hear her sobbing. My dad was sitting next to her and rubbing her back to calm her down but he was fighting himself to not break down into tears too, I took a deep breath and cleared my throat getting the attention. Before I even noticed, my mother was hugging me whispering in my ear, "He is gone, yo-y-y-you are t-the only thing tha-at can remind us of him"

Her words was tearing me apart and killing the happiness that was in my heart. MY brother is gone forever.

After locking myself in my room for the two days without eating or talking to anyone, I heard a knock on the door but I didn't bothered myself and say or do anything or give any sign to show the door-knocker that he can come in, I was frozen in my spot watching the ceiling like forever until I heard footsteps coming toward my bed but I didn't bother myself and move my head up, my father looked at me with glassy teary eyes while his longish ebony hear is covering his forehead, he looked miserable. His whispers reached my ear but the sound of my sobs was louder than any other voice in this empty world, I thought that I am alone but his picture came to my mind.

"He is here" I whispered to myself ignoring what my father was telling me.

By avoiding my mother's and father's gazes I went out the house and the cold wind was kissing my wet cheeks and I noticed my tears flying with the wind, maybe that was my brother telling me that he is fine... Or maybe not.

I rushed to Luc's house and knocked the door waiting to see his face, that what I thought. His sister opened the door and she immediately hugged me but I couldn't hug her back.

"Thalia, Can I see Luc?" I asked calmly waiting for her answer. "I'm sorry Amy but Luc is not here, He lift to America yesterday and we don't know when he will come back." He also not here.

And that was enough for a girl who drew up with no one except two guys and now she had to grow up without them, so this girl decided to become a person who would not depend on anyone else.

But then the white envelope was stuck at my door, and everything went upside down, revealing all the secrets and lies around me, making me drown at the sea of reality to breath the bittersweet dreams.